How were you on the ministry, zelouse or lazy? Did you have any zelouse and successful publishers? I am sure that the large % of witnesses can't be bothered on the ministry, and this is why I was not surprised to discover no outsiders have been bought in to the congregation since I left.
I think that because I was born with that organization shoved down my throat, I became both very zealous and dedicated. After all I had no other way of knowing life and as children we always manage to find a way of doing what children are supposed to do.
Later as an adolescent was when i started noticing people slacking. I naively thought that every person was supposed to be as enthusiastic and devoted as I was. That started giving me ideas and I started being less into it. From that point all the way to my fade, I started becoming more and more disinterested, although I was always very, very good at preaching. I actually liked going to talk to people (maybe because that was the only real contact with the outside world I had). Sadly, I was never encouraged or praised for my good skills or devotion.