I was raised to fear anyone who is not a jw. I hate it! How do you deal with these horrible feelings? There is a co-worker that wants to hangout and I would really like to. How do I push this endoctrination out of my head that it's not fine to be friends with someone who is not a JW? I feel like a big mess bleh.
I'm so sorry you are feeling like that. It's a very undeserving treatment what they gave you.
I don't feel comfortable giving you advice, but I can suggest that if you feel that your JW hangups are precluding you from moving on, especially from socializing, there are healthy ways of dealing with it. There's professional help if you feel the problem is something you cannot solve on your own (counseling, therapy, support groups, reliable self-help information from reputable sources to name a few). There's you just taking baby steps to feel comfortable out "in the world". As opposed to the black and white mentality that the JWs promote, you don't have to be extreme (neither a loyal inseparable absolute best friend, nor totally isolated from everybody).
I didn't have problems making friends, probably because I prepared and faded, I was not pushed out. That gave me the opportunity to start making friends and building support outside as I was preparing to leave. I went to college, did volunteer work, activism, and joined groups and people I like.
It may be different if you still feel that the WT's preachings are true. In my case I couldn't care less, and once I stop believing in the Jehovah crap, I couldn't care less about being friends with the JWs I knew then. That was motivation for me to look for support outside.
There isn't one way of getting a better social life, but a good starting point for me was to get rid of the WT influence as much as possible.