Sorry for you my friend. It is never too late to see the light My friend.Think about all those still in ,manipulated, naively belieivng the TRUTH AIR BUBBLE and wasting away their lives for nothing. At least you are out.Now "make things happen for you " which will have more meaning in your life, give you joy and satisfaction of doing so with the way you want your life to pan out from now on.
The best thing you can do positively is move forward, dont look back.
Most importantly we all are here for you to help you .Dont feel you are on your own. Share things as you see fit and we will be here to help you coz we are all in the same boat.
Peace.