2 Corinthians: 13:5: "Test your own selves, whether you are in the faith. Test your own selves. Or don't you know as to your own selves, that Jesus Christ is in you?--unless indeed you are disqualified."
When you leave the organization, it becomes a huge test. Did you really have faith in God and his word? Or was your faith really in the organization?
Many have found, (and you can almost point these individuals out) , that there faith was misplaced. There basis for faith was "the worldwide brotherhood", "preaching work", "evidence of last days", "unity", among other Watchtower "visible" nonsense.
As one person said, the Watchtower screams day and night. But the Bible sits alone quietly on the shelf. So easy to ignore. For me personally, it truly was a test. It takes time and patience. But it allowed me to study and reflect deeply. No matter what subject I studied online however, one thing would not go away. It was this:
Isaiah: 30:21: "and when you turn to the right hand, and when you turn to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way. Walk in it."
I could not ignore that voice. Rather than abandoning me, I learned that Yahweh is NOT my friend. Rather, Jesus revealed the father. I am his child. (The Watchtower tried to deny this relationship). That relationship changes everything. I never call him by name. At least when I'm directing my prayers to him.
Also, in the Watchtower, you never knew Christ. They didn't want you to give him too much attention. But now Christ is EVERYTHING. Mark: 9:7: "A cloud came, overshadowing them, and a voice came out of the cloud, "This is my beloved Son. Listen to him." Also, Philippians: 2:10: "that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of those in heaven, those on earth, and those under the earth..."
By allowing Christ in my life, and learning my true relationship with God, I have moved on from turmoil to a true peace of mind. I have never experienced Christ's words until now. Matthew: 11: 28-30: "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart; and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light."
So, where is Yahweh?
Acts: 17. 27: "that they should seek the Lord, if perhaps they might reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us."