I just need to vent,you see i was a born in.It's taken me 20 years after fading from the org to finally get my mind free from the wt dogma.I was on the phone with my aunt today and the subject of my mother her older sister came up.Now mind you i haven't spoken to my mother in a month or so after my daughter stayed the weekend at her house and she was being tag teamed about the hall and how i took a vow to jehovah and i'm a failure and i'll be destroyed at armagedon.This exchange upset my daughter so much that she was near the point of tears when she returned home and she hasnt spoken to my mother or father since.Anyway back to the conversation with my aunt,she let it slip that my mother told her that she wished she had let the seamen that fertilized the egg that produced me had slid down her legnno bear in mind i can remember as a child running into her room playing and she would say to me as a 7 year old child "I wished i had left you in oblivion"This is one of many such saying my mother had for me......I wasn't a bad child i just wasn't allowed to do anything such as going outside going over a friends house....etc,I have struggled for years as to why this woman hates me so.I got baptized at 15 really as a way of pleasing them what the hell does a child know at 15???Granted it took me some time to get myself together and put those hurtful comments in the past,but today when my aunt let it slip about what my mother has said about me it was like pulling a scap off of a wound.My wife always complains about how im emotionless and distance,this was done by me as a way of protecting myself.So i've decided and i hate to say this that my christian god fearing parents...are dead to me there is no way i can have a relationship with people that are so wicked and since she never wanted me anyway....it works out for the best thx i just needed to vent i felt like i was going to pop.
20yearfader
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My Jw mother hates me and always has
by 20yearfader ini just need to vent,you see i was a born in.it's taken me 20 years after fading from the org to finally get my mind free from the wt dogma.i was on the phone with my aunt today and the subject of my mother her older sister came up.now mind you i haven't spoken to my mother in a month or so after my daughter stayed the weekend at her house and she was being tag teamed about the hall and how i took a vow to jehovah and i'm a failure and i'll be destroyed at armagedon.this exchange upset my daughter so much that she was near the point of tears when she returned home and she hasnt spoken to my mother or father since.anyway back to the conversation with my aunt,she let it slip that my mother told her that she wished she had let the seamen that fertilized the egg that produced me had slid down her legnno bear in mind i can remember as a child running into her room playing and she would say to me as a 7 year old child "i wished i had left you in oblivion"this is one of many such saying my mother had for me......i wasn't a bad child i just wasn't allowed to do anything such as going outside going over a friends house....etc,i have struggled for years as to why this woman hates me so.i got baptized at 15 really as a way of pleasing them what the hell does a child know at 15??
?granted it took me some time to get myself together and put those hurtful comments in the past,but today when my aunt let it slip about what my mother has said about me it was like pulling a scap off of a wound.my wife always complains about how im emotionless and distance,this was done by me as a way of protecting myself.so i've decided and i hate to say this that my christian god fearing parents...are dead to me there is no way i can have a relationship with people that are so wicked and since she never wanted me anyway....it works out for the best thx i just needed to vent i felt like i was going to pop..
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As a JW, how did you feel about shunning?
by jwfacts ini am interested in the answers for a new poll.
also, feel free to suggest other options, wording etc.agreed in full with the watchtower guidelinesagreed with shunning in general, but not for familywas stumbled by this practice but shunned as instructeddid not agree with the practice and secretly associated with disfellowshipped people .
for me personally, i did not agree with the practice and secretly associated with disfellowshipped people, even whilst at bethel.
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20yearfader
I never practiced it, to me the dumbest thing to do to someone that you claim to love is to ignore them.We would go to the dc and i had 2 aunts that were dced.l always made an effort to go and sit with them,which would drive my mother and father bananas.It's funny even as a child i had more sense then most jws,every person i talked to that was dfed was bitter and angry,how is this christian?Most jws use it as a status thing,my mother regular tells me that she's been in the org for 50 years and never been in trouble or dfed,she really looks down on people that have been dfed i think she gets off on it she gets such a certain joy when someone is read off.All my life this wicked cold hearted women has been this way i think the ultimate pleasure for her is to see me destryed at armagedon.If people like her are to be the ones that populate paradise if there is such a thing i'll pass.
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Born-ins. What does this remind you of ?
by DATA-DOG inhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=blw0mnqh0r8 .
i laughed out loud!
guess you had to be there!
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20yearfader
now i see why a lot of people were so pissed off with us when we would ring there bells on a early sat.
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An experiment: Open House for Demons
by return of parakeet ini feel cheated that never, not once, as a dub or as a ex-dub, did i experience the presence, manifestation, or just-things-flying-around, of demons.
not so much as a teacup levitating from its saucer.
no inexplicable cold spots.
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20yearfader
i use to buy the gonesh ones that come in a gold wrapper.prehaps you might want to do an internet search on haunted places around you and investigate.They don't respond all the times to our calls we are only flesh we command nothing but good luck,becareful what you wish for....
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Its been a long time since i last posted, but life is being rough again
by akafreelife init has been a long time since i was on here and life has gone many different ways since then.
been married and getting divorced, and now have a son.
life has not been kind to me since i have left the org.
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20yearfader
i agree with exwhyzee women hate a man that seems needy.I made this mistake with my first piece when i let the org.You need someone to love and be loved,but our being born in the org ruins any relationship skills we should have these worldy women..lol and men are like 3 steps ahead of us plus they didnt have the disavantage of being raised in the moronic org.Next person you meet try not to go all in be confident however a little aloof let her decide how far she wants this relationship to go.Don't start the relationship off on how you were in the org and what happened to you,people that have never had contact with the jws might not understand what we you are going through keep that to yourself until you feel that's it's time to open up about that.Lastly don't sweat this chic go get your stuff from her house,keep your head up and please please dont beg her good luck bro.
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An experiment: Open House for Demons
by return of parakeet ini feel cheated that never, not once, as a dub or as a ex-dub, did i experience the presence, manifestation, or just-things-flying-around, of demons.
not so much as a teacup levitating from its saucer.
no inexplicable cold spots.
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20yearfader
If you really want to contact the demons start burning incense for a few months i dont know what it is about incense but weird things happen to me when i use to burn it.It's funny cause some of the worst hold downs i use to have was when i was in my parents jw home. You be careful about what you wish parakeet,not saying ...i dont know what im saying i just know i have had some weird experiences be it demons or other beings i dont know but something is out there.........be careful.
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Who would you most like to meet from this board and why?
by usualusername inwho would you most like to meet from this board and why?.
i would love to by danmera dinner.
she rocks!.
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20yearfader
i would love to meet unstopableravens...so we could cheer on the ravens and flyinghighnow,cedars,sd-7,etc....
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How Long has it Been since you Last Attended Meetings and What Caused...
by flipper in..... you to stop attending ?
injustices ?
disagree with the teachings ?
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20yearfader
It's been 21 years since i attended a meeting.One of the reasons i stopped going was that i was in a relationship with a worldly girl.My father who was an elder told the co about it and it led to me being public reproofed.After that i was done, my father and the other elders were brought in to replace the old body of elders because of a power struggle.Every move i made was disected by the elders that had been deleted, i even had one approach me in the street after i left,try to persuade me to talk to him in confidence about what i was doing since i was wasnt attending the meetings anymore.Bottom line i'm much happier since i left and i will never go back.
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I'm so offended by what happened today at the KIngdom Hall!!
by Vienna Angelika inso today we were late for the meeting as usual.
this is because i take a really bad medication where i literally cannot function in the first part of the day but without it i am even worse.
we got there near the end of the talk and it was in my opinion very anoying.
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20yearfader
well they would never want me to come over i became a master of sleeping with one eye opened when i attended the hall.It worked well until i attended a meeting after drinking and my sister ratted me out.....ah the good ole days
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Pioneering - the best job in the world!
by MMXIV inhow often did i hear those words at circuit or district assemblies - that pioneering was the best job in the world?
how often did i hear a fake job advert for pioneering where there was 100% job satisfaction working for the most powerful person in the universe and you'd get to travel the world and live forever.... i've done both jobs and would say that the job advert should more honestly read like this:.
secular job.
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20yearfader
never even with the overbearing parents i had,in fact i think i only got my standard 10 hours twice all of the 17 years i was in never had the desire to pioneer,man i hated going in field service