Hi Meow,
You've done a smart thing to ask about this religion before dedicating yourself to it. I wish I had done this 6 years ago when I became a JW. If I had, I would not be going through the misery that I now face because of becoming a baptized member.
I know what you are learning from them seems to make sense to you, as it did to me years ago. I have to hand it to the WT for creating one of the most clever religious scams probably to ever exist and it is so easy for anyone, especially if you are in a vulnerable state (like I was), to be convinced that what they are teaching you is truth. In reality what they are doing is making clever well contrived arguments to control your mind and convince you that they are the only true religion on the earth. Once your mind has accepted this, it will be easy for your mind to also accept all the false doctrines they teach, even if you have some doubts in your mind. This is exactly what happened to me. Think about the blood issue, have you done a well researched study of the blood issue? By research I mean looking into not only what the bible says or what JWs tell you the scriptures on blood mean but research on what other religions say and what the medical community says. There are times when blood is necessary. If you are in a car accident and you loose too much blood no blood expander or anything is going to save your life, only blood will. I knew this, yet once I was convinced that the JWs were the only true religion, I felt that obstaining from blood regardless if I die would be the right thing to do so as to please God. You see that little red book you are studying out of called "The Knowledge That Leads to Everlasting Life" is a tool used for the sole purpose of getting you baptized, getting you convinced that the Governing Body in Brooklyn has a special relationship with God and you are to listen to their every word or else you are not accepted by God. If you read up on mind control tactics and cult trates, you will find that JWs follow the cult pattern.
Others here have advised you to read "Crisis of Conscience" I also suggest you do so. I also suggest you read up on cults and mind control and also read about other religions and their view of christianity etc. Look for info on the net. There are many useful websites that will help you become knowledgable of what the JW religion really is. Stick around here and read and ask questions, we'll be glad to help. Above all you should think for yourself and not let anyone think for you. You should make a close examination of everything and decide for yourself and you should never feel pressured to do anything you are not ready for.
Like I said, I wish I had done this myself 6 years ago but I foolishly let myself be decieved and now I'm having to pay a big price and the price is only getting higher as I make my way out of the organization and try to gain back the freedom I lost by becoming a JW. Don't let this happen to you. You have the power to make your life whatever you want it to be, don't let anyone rob you of that, ever.
Email me anytime if you'd like, use the envelope icon under my name to send me an email.
I wish you the best,
Star
"We would not refuse to treat one as a brother because he did not believe the Society is the Lord's channel... There should be full liberty of conscience." -- WT April 1, 1920, p. 100, 101
