hi gumby,
I had severe doubts of the existence of a diety while still a JW.
That was one of the factors that caused so much internal turmoil for me. As a voracious reader I had encountered too many facts and ideas that told me otherwise.
Going back to college expanding my research,being able to openly discuss issues confirmed what had always troubled me . And with more thought and study led me to the conclusion I have now.
Especially womens historical issues regarding male supremacy and patriarchy. I began to learn the bible was simply literature.Nothing sacred about it. The myth of Adam and Eve was nothing more than metaphor for birth death and re-birth(just one example) and that the hebrew tribal godlet yhwh was nothing more than the paternalistic,patriarchal prototype to monotheistic religions.
The sciences were revealing as well.......
I began to realize not only I,but no one else could make a case for gods existence. That the only arguements were coming from closed minded rigid fundamentalists who ignored,denied and dismissed the data from just about every discipline around.
So I was a humanist before I came to these boards. And the knowledge shared by the really brilliant people here has expanded my views even more. They have led me down paths of study I may have missed . This thru reading the threads on evolution,what I see as socio-cultural issues,pscy issues,etc.
Others experiences and knowledge can only enhance yours,if you keep an open mind. Tina
Vive Bene
Spesso L'amore
Di Risata Molto!!!