I can understand being in a judicial committee if someone ratted you out, but as has been said already by others, you are a complete fool to open up to the elders about ANYTHING! No matter how close you are to them and if you consider them like a father figure or best friend, their number one priority is keeping the congregation clean and answering to the circuit overseer. They don’t care how much they fuck up your life, just as long as they can feel a sense of pride by upholding the cleanliness in the Organization.
No one should ever approach men and ask for forgiveness or try to prove your repentance to them. That’s what prayer is for if you believe in God. Why even feel guilty about sinning, we have all been born sinners, it’s what we fucking do!