This is what has caused my to have doubts and fade.
I went on a sheperding call with an elder (I'm an M.S.) and he asked the family how often they pray, what they say in prayer and if they have asked for help to make the meetings (They weren't too regular) The bro. said that his elderly mother is living with them and she requires 24 hour care, so they rotate and they don't the $ to hire a nurse. The elder said: "Have you asked for forgivness for missing the meetings? This is a requirement of all christians. Afterward, I talked to the elder in the car and asked: I thought sheperding calls were encouraging? He said yeah, we gave them the needed boost. I said how about we go back and tell them that Jah appreciates the help and mom they give to the eldery woman? Jesus made sure that his mother was cared for when he was passing away. The bro refused.