Black Wolf, your doing great, we’re here for you. You can be confused about doctrine till the cows come home, but remember the crux of the matter to always put out there, no matter how much pressure is put on you.
This is about baptism question #2 and your 100% belief and dedication to the “spirit directed” org.
“This is the biggest decision of my life, so I need to be absolutely sure (about the org), because I can’t change my mind later.”
They can throw at you circular logic, tell you your life is in danger etc, but I think you can always play that card, and be “confused” till your 18, and get on with your life.
Stay strong,
HBH
P.S. Make absolutely sure they can’t find out you’ve been on this (or other) “bad” sites.