ohiocowboy - thanks, sweetie. Hope you are doing well, haven't talked to you in a while. undercover-i like your reply, i think i will copy and paste it. thanks, everyone else for your input and b-day wishes. btw, my reply to her was, "why do you think i am celebrating b-days"? i got a text from her that she was going to call me today. she didn't, which i'm glad cause i was swamped at work all day but when she does i think i will use undercover's reply. a few months back i got an email from her because she had heard that i was apostate, so i'm sure it won't be a surprise to her when she finds out that i haven't been to a meeting in over a year. i'm at the point where i don't give a rats ass anymore, pardon my french. I'm finally FREE!!!