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My conversation with the "Fixer" attorney for Pentecostal TV evangelists

by TerryWalstrom in

i had occasion to chat with a man who was the attorney for a large cabal (all related by blood) of pentecostal tv evangelists.

how it came about was as follows.i was finishing my first book about my stint in prison as a jw (i wept by the rivers of babylon)and a man in a suit walked over and asked me what i was working on.he said he'd seen me every day and got curious.i told him.he jumped at the chance to unburden at that point.in the course of our conversation, he opened my eyes to a great many things, not the least of which was the poisonous inevitability of larceny which comes with being a spokesman for god's 'truth.

'he described the process.

TerryWalstrom

Constituents with Money contribute to campaigns with implicit agreements of a "hearing ear and positive outcome."
The chances of stopping the gravy train are zero.

Local preachers have a better chance than National evangelicals because too many upcoming prosecutors want to make a name for themselves.

Still--it is rare to have National scandal.

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Speed Trap

by TerryWalstrom in

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speed trap (1970).

i was driving back from a music gig in austin when i hit one of those sneaky highway speed traps.. back then the speed limit on the interstate was 55 mph.. well--suddenly for a quarter mile--it wasn't.. how do i know that?the patrolman who stopped me was kind enough to inform me...as he bid me follow him...to the local justice of the peace...to pay my $50 fine...or else i'd go to jail.. looking back on that episode in my life--i handled it with less wisdom than i now possess.for one thing, i was a bit insensitive.the justice was older than god's socks.

he may well have been animatronic (you know, like at disneyland).he was deafer than beethoven.. "your honor, there was no reduce speed sign posted along the hi---"he kept interrupting me to ask if i wanted to pay cash or personal check.my remedy was to talk louder.. "your honor, there was...etc".

TerryWalstrom

SPEED TRAP (1970)

I was driving back from a music gig in Austin when I hit one of those sneaky highway Speed Traps.

Back then the speed limit on the Interstate was 55 mph.

Well--suddenly for a quarter mile--it wasn't.

How do I know that?
The patrolman who stopped me was kind enough to inform me...as he bid me follow him...to the local Justice of the Peace...to pay my $50 fine...or else I'd go to jail.

Looking back on that episode in my life--I handled it with less wisdom than I now possess.
For one thing, I was a bit insensitive.
The Justice was older than God's socks. He may well have been Animatronic (You know, like at Disneyland).
He was deafer than Beethoven.

"Your Honor, there was no reduce speed sign posted along the hi---"
He kept interrupting me to ask if I wanted to pay cash or personal check.
My remedy was to TALK LOUDER.

"YOUR HONOR, THERE WAS...etc"

This only emboldened the patrolman to jump in and interpret the Judge's demand for cash in unmistakable words.

"Listen--pay your fine or I take you straight to jail where you will be held for 3 days before you come before this same magistrate and the fine will have jumped up to $200."

Now, I ask you, what could be more clear?
I guess my indignation was inappropriate with me employing disrespectful phrases such as "kangaroo court", "swindle", and "corrupt practice".

Suffice to say, I ended up in the local jailhouse with about 19 detainees--most of whom could not speak English.
I hasten to add one more detail as well--these fellas were planning to escape.
The one guy who could speak English (sorta) 'splained' the scathingly brilliant plan to me.

"We set our mattresses on fire. Guards smell the smoke and open the cell and we all escape."

Breathtaking, isn't it?

For one thing, the simplicity of expression. Pithy.

I became shitlessly anxious about this mastermind's sanity and pushed back not a little.

"May I ask just one question, please?"
The hombre loco nodded confidently.

"What happens if we all die of smoke inhalation BEFORE the guard shows up?"

I'll never forget his thoughtful response to my query and concern.

"Unlikely."

Yep. All my fears allayed!
NOT!!!

The 20 jail cell mattresses were pulled together in a heap while I crawled out of my skin--all the while thinking to myself:
"If I get out of this alive--I'll never drive over 35 mph for the rest of my life."

At this point in my predicament, you're about to encounter my one and only confrontation with a DEUX EX MACHINA.

(Deus ex machina is a plot device whereby a seemingly unsolvable problem in a story is suddenly and abruptly resolved by an unexpected and seemingly unlikely occurrence, typically so much as to seem contrived.)

This really happened!
The sound of the guard key opening the big steel door sent the inmates scurrying with their mattresses--back to the bunks.

My name was called.
I ran out of the cell like Chicken Little.

My Father-in-Law had arrived to pay my fine!!
Perfect timing. A miracle, really.
(My one phone call and I picked the most dependable man on Planet Earth, Steve Santa Cruz.)

In the holding cell awaiting final processing, I met a shabby bum of a guy, arrested for trying to rob a liquor store with a toy pistol.
He was talkative. I just listened.

" I figured out I was destined for a career as a criminal in the 3rd grade.
I got my Report Card and received a D minus. I changed the minus - to a plus +.
My mother could tell what I'd done. I used a different color ink.
She yelled at me. My Dad found out and showed me how to change a D to look like a B because--no self-respecting person would settle for a D minus when a B+ was possible."

I was impressed by this man's admission of having come from such a Crime Family.

The next day, I checked newspapers for any report of a Jail facility fire. None reported.

What is the Moral of this little Cautionary Tale?

Keep an extra $50 in cash with you at all times.

(Your mileage may vary, of course)

_____

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My conversation with the "Fixer" attorney for Pentecostal TV evangelists

by TerryWalstrom in

i had occasion to chat with a man who was the attorney for a large cabal (all related by blood) of pentecostal tv evangelists.

how it came about was as follows.i was finishing my first book about my stint in prison as a jw (i wept by the rivers of babylon)and a man in a suit walked over and asked me what i was working on.he said he'd seen me every day and got curious.i told him.he jumped at the chance to unburden at that point.in the course of our conversation, he opened my eyes to a great many things, not the least of which was the poisonous inevitability of larceny which comes with being a spokesman for god's 'truth.

'he described the process.

TerryWalstrom

It surprised me to hear the man say all TV evangelists (?) are Pentecostal and related by blood. Should I assume he meant "White"?
My favorite of all time was Gene Scott. Now that man had entertainment value.
I think his wife (who took over the ministry and managed to survive being outed as a former porn 'actress') is a fine teacher. The emphasis being on the word 'fine.'

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My conversation with the "Fixer" attorney for Pentecostal TV evangelists

by TerryWalstrom in

i had occasion to chat with a man who was the attorney for a large cabal (all related by blood) of pentecostal tv evangelists.

how it came about was as follows.i was finishing my first book about my stint in prison as a jw (i wept by the rivers of babylon)and a man in a suit walked over and asked me what i was working on.he said he'd seen me every day and got curious.i told him.he jumped at the chance to unburden at that point.in the course of our conversation, he opened my eyes to a great many things, not the least of which was the poisonous inevitability of larceny which comes with being a spokesman for god's 'truth.

'he described the process.

TerryWalstrom

Governing Body seems to have emerged into the light of day after almost a hundred years of being virtually invisible.
That is HUGE.

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My conversation with the "Fixer" attorney for Pentecostal TV evangelists

by TerryWalstrom in

i had occasion to chat with a man who was the attorney for a large cabal (all related by blood) of pentecostal tv evangelists.

how it came about was as follows.i was finishing my first book about my stint in prison as a jw (i wept by the rivers of babylon)and a man in a suit walked over and asked me what i was working on.he said he'd seen me every day and got curious.i told him.he jumped at the chance to unburden at that point.in the course of our conversation, he opened my eyes to a great many things, not the least of which was the poisonous inevitability of larceny which comes with being a spokesman for god's 'truth.

'he described the process.

TerryWalstrom

If you have enough lawyers, have "important" power connections (think "Catholic Church") many small misdeeds can vanish. It's really the whistleblower who brings down the ax if a huge revelation catches the guardians of secrets by surprise.

How did Hillary Clinton manage to survive so many misdeeds?
How has Donald Trump?
When Bernie Sanders got 'legally' cheated from behind the scenes sabotage...
When the Banking / Savings and Loan crisis came down--
How many bad actors went to prison?

$$$$$$$$$ can just about pull off miracles.

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My conversation with the "Fixer" attorney for Pentecostal TV evangelists

by TerryWalstrom in

i had occasion to chat with a man who was the attorney for a large cabal (all related by blood) of pentecostal tv evangelists.

how it came about was as follows.i was finishing my first book about my stint in prison as a jw (i wept by the rivers of babylon)and a man in a suit walked over and asked me what i was working on.he said he'd seen me every day and got curious.i told him.he jumped at the chance to unburden at that point.in the course of our conversation, he opened my eyes to a great many things, not the least of which was the poisonous inevitability of larceny which comes with being a spokesman for god's 'truth.

'he described the process.

TerryWalstrom

I had occasion to chat with a man who was the attorney for a large cabal (all related by blood) of Pentecostal TV evangelists.
How it came about was as follows.
I was finishing my first book about my stint in prison as a JW (I Wept by the Rivers of Babylon)
and a man in a suit walked over and asked me what I was working on.
He said he'd seen me every day and got curious.
I told him.
He jumped at the chance to unburden at that point.

In the course of our conversation, he opened my eyes to a great many things, not the least of which was the poisonous inevitability of Larceny which comes with being a spokesman for God's 'truth.'

He described the process.

"All those people reaching out to YOU with absolute love and faith is stronger than any drug. It ignites a fire in the ego. I've seen some really good people drown in admiration as their character begins to rot. They feel more than powerful. It becomes a sense of entitlement, greed, and invulnerability. The worst part is how willingly the humble poor folks, their members, just throw themselves into victimhood with a frightening joy! The transformation from Jekyll into Hyde is like a werewolf when the moon turns full."

He went on to tell me of how besotted with money, drugs, sex, and debauchery formerly strait-laced preachers become so easily, an inch at a time. He shook his head and described phone calls in the middle of the night with cries for "Help" when these evangelists went a step too far and needed legal help to pull them out of a jam; the suitcases filled with cash and the payoffs in sleazy motel rooms.

I spoke to him about the Ex-JW's who wanted to blow the whistle on the Watchtower organization and he dropped his head in shame.

"You don't know how sick of my life I've become. I am the keeper of secrets so disturbing I can't sleep well any longer. I want to be a whistleblower and just tell everything I know--and believe me--I could take the whole network of famous preachers down in a heartbeat because every last one of them has filthy secrets to hide. . . "
I urged the man to do so. He looked at me with his face drained of color and said, "I wouldn't live very long if I tried that--and they have made quite clear that I should understand it."

He told me about Robert Tilton, a local TV evangelist who had been taken down by an investigative report. Tilton had owned so many satellites used for TV ministry, NBC leased some of them for their broadcasts. His ministry required one million dollars per day just to break even! The hardest part of being Tilton's attorney was finding ways to hide all the cash.

Not only did this conversation disturb me, it caused me to reflect on the JW.org manifestation of a TV-style presence and the sudden appeals for cash. Lawyers and litigation are draining of resources like a gambling addiction in Vegas. The money flows in and goes away with such blazing swiftness--the chase after more and more funding gets out of hand to the point the ENTIRE ministry is only focused on the acquisition of $$$$.

How deep is the Watchtower cabal into that swirling whirlpool of eventual self-destruction? How many lawyers are on the 24/7 payroll? What are their legal expenses each day around the world?

All of this hearkens back to Charles T. Russell and his lawyer J.F.Rutherford--comrades in duplicity--who were living in much easier times BEFORE taxation was even an issue. Just how much corruption eventually rotted away the veneer of a righteous group of "Bible Students"?

I think history shows the answer. The Bible Students fell away so rapidly and with such broken-hearted disappointment at what Rutherford had brought to fruition, they more or less doomed themselves to become starved of cash.

The attorney, just before he got up to leave, said something to me that stuck.
"Every effective minister will gain a following and one day the moment will come. Every last one of them will be at a crossroad. The most important decision of their life will be facing them. Do they go BIG and reach for the fame, fortune, and power--or will they remain a minnow in a puddle, humble and unsung? It is an intoxicating test of character every last one of them fail--at least from my experience."

I've e-mailed him twice since that first conversation.
He replies and promises to follow up...but...nothing comes of it.

Fear. That's my guess.

Audio : I read the first chapter of my Detective story Black Coffee, Hard Justice

by TerryWalstrom in

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as read by me: (click link below)https://drive.google.com/open?id=1y3qdctyidsojiadgrzm6wyhvvkmg54jkblack coffee, hard justice____________.

private detective joe fisk was pushing 60.

60 was pushing back.

TerryWalstrom

As read by me: (Click link below)
https://drive.google.com/open?id=1Y3QdCtYiDsOjiAdGRZM6WYhVvkmG54jK

BLACK COFFEE, HARD JUSTICE
____________

Private Detective Joe Fisk was pushing 60.
60 was pushing back. Hard.

For instance: Morning

Joe Fisk groaned, rolled over and sat up.

He slumped forward at the edge of a fifteen dollar army surplus cot and coughed for five minutes...working air into his pipes.

"What happened last night?--It wasn’t a rhetorical question.
It was the answer itself.

Joe Fisk stared at the opposite wall - as he did every morning, at his inspirational hand-lettered sign which read,

"Why bother?"

He had promised himself there had to be an answer or he wouldn’t get up or continue being a Private Investigator unless there was a damn good reason.

He sniffed and rolled his eyes back under the lids and came out with it--the same answer
As yesterday and the day before and the day before.
His Father’s voice. The Father who had insisted he should become a Rabbi.

“Joey, it’s up to you to Repair what’s broken in this world.”

He had smart-assed back at his old man.
“What? You want I should be an auto mechanic?”
Well--that didn’t fly. But he knew what his old man meant.

Creaky philosophy was better than the alternative which was staring down into
That abyss of despair.
Fisk stood and saluted his sign smartly at attention

“For you, Pop. Mazel Tov!”

Shortly, coffee perked and an old Schick shaver hummed across his cheeks.
He stared into the cracked mirror above the sink as he shaved.
He could really use a haircut. Not this homemade hack job he’d tried the week before.
A day’s growth of stubble on his cleft chin had filled in with white whiskers.
Just that one spot. A fuzz white dot.
Weird.

The rest of his beard rioted around his jawbone.
His large blue eyes were an insurrection of red cracks.

“Dissipation.”
He croaked the word with a half smile.
It was his grandma’s word. She’d see an old movie star on her TV
And shake her head with disapproval.

“Look at the dissipation on Errol Flynn’s face! He used to be so handsome.”

Joe Fisk smiled to himself. It was his turn to be Errol Flynn.
Half-moon shadows bagged under his steely gaze.

“Dissipation, Bubbe, you were right.”

He stood exactly five nine.
“Like Tom Cruise!” he'd say if anybody inquired. Once a bullshitter, always a bullshitter.

Now he frowned at the old detective in his bathroom mirror.

“What happened with our cocktail waitress last night? Missing in inaction?”

The old detective carved around his chin hole with a straight razor.
Sculpting his last remaining manly feature.
Wiping shave cream away, he straightened and answered the mirror.

“I have standards to uphold. She wasn’t my type.”

The bleary image shook its head skeptically.
“Joey, nobody’s buying what you’re peddling these days. What you gave is what you got -- no respect.”
__
Out front a Chevy truck with a bad muffler revved and rattled the plate glass window in the front office.
Fisk snatched up the same white shirt from the day before. ( Not so white anymore. )
He gave it the sniff test and recoiled. It smelled like the Y.M.C.A. locker room. He put it on anyway.

“Gotta look nice for today’s meal ticket!” He announced in a robust voice to nobody.
___________

The ting-a-ling bell above the door announced ‘opportunity’ as Joe Fisk slipped on his alligators and and sport jacket..

“Can I help you!?”

He approached a rumpled Stetson hat wearing a man underneath … not unlike a young Slim Pickens. Joe sized him up. Local rancher. Not too bright. Domestic troubles.

“Say, fella--where’s your partner--Glen?”

“I buried him last week.”

“Glen is dead?”

“Buried in Rose Hill Cemetery. So, um--yeah.”

“Shit fire! I need a Detective. Can you give me a referral?”

Fisk lost patience.
“Damn right I can. His name is Joe Fisk and he’s waiting to shake your hand.”

The detective leaned forward offering a handshake with a politician’s smile. Fake as a rubber snake.

The Slim Pickens character stared at the waiting hand an uncomfortable few seconds like it was the shit end of a stick -- then he shrugged and grabbed the hand and squeezed it with a manly display of gripping power.

“I’m an old buddy of Glen. Glad to know you, fella. What I need is for you to tail my girlfriend. You know? Follow her?”
Fisk wrinkled his nose at the man’s I.Q.

“W-h-y?”

“What the hell? Why do think? She’s cheating on me again -- with her husband.”

“You mean Ex-husband!”

“No. Her new husband. The old one died under mysterious circumstances.”

The detective gestured for his man to sit.
He rubbed his hand. Feeling was beginning to return.
He poured coffee into a red mug with Hugh Laurie’s face on it and the two sat a spell.
Quietly.
Each had personal thoughts to sort.

“You’re not making any sense, Slim. Try again.”

“Her name's Rosie Clegg. I should say her new married name. He’s a damned Dutchman. He must have money cause he sure ain’t got good looks like me.”

He undid the snap on his shirt pocket and came out with a notepad. The little golf pencil behind his ear scrawled something and he handed it over.
The man’s filthy hand trembled with either rage or Parkinson’s.

Joe Fisk took the paper and stared blankly. Wondering.
He thought only to himself. ‘

'What the hell do you really want?’

The man spoke as if he’d read those thoughts.

“Up until a month ago, it was Rosie and me living off her last husband’s insurance money.
This new husband is just supposed to be our rainy day piggy bank. You understand? Rosie and me--we got something rare and special. True Love. Except she’s been cold lately. She ain’t acting right. I think she’s lying to me. As hard as it is for me to believe--I suspect she might be falling for this Dutchman.
I want my jealous suspicions confirmed before I go all Tarantino on her ass.”

Right then--the desk phone rang.
An ancient answering machine clicked on immediately.
After the beep, an alcoholic voice -- a woman’s -- loud.

<<“Glen! You worthless son-of-a-bitch! -- where’s my alimony for September and October?”>>

Fisk dived for the phone-- picked up and cleared his throat.

“Doris -- this is Joe. I buried Glen last week. Dead. Remember? I didn’t see you at the funeral. Are you okay?”

The cowpoke sat like a weary hunting dog with his head half-cocked sideways.
He couldn’t hear but one end of the conversation. He leaned in--all curious.

Fisk gestured as he argued with the telephone receiver.

“ There IS no money. Doris--you understand?
Listen to me: Glen is gone. Dead means dead. No Glen, no money.”

He hung up and shook his head sadly.
The man in the hat chuckled.

"You work in a nasty business like this, Detective. Ain’t there a better way to earn a buck?"

Joe Fisk closed his eyes slowly. He opened them even slower.
He didn’t answer.

The cowpoke leaned in and pushed his hat back.

“It’s a serious question. I wanna know what makes a man wanna spend his life listening
to drunks, murderers, jealous lovers beg you for help getting one over on their lying, whoring loved ones?”

Joe Fisk thought for a few seconds and shrugged.

" I guess it must be the thrill of an intellectual challenge."

"You're shittin' me."

Fisk nodded.
“Yeah--I’m shittin’ you.”
____

Later, Fisk and Pickens stood next to the Chevy truck outside.

“I need cheatin’ photos or I ain’t payin’ you a cent--and don’t ask for any advances for expense. Glen knew me and trusted me. I always pay when the job is done right.”

“Do I have this straight? If I can prove Rosie Clegg loves her husband--instead of her... handsome... Stetson wearing boyfriend, I turn over the incriminating photos and you’ll pay me nine thousand dollars?”

“Right as rain, Detective Fisk. What I do to her afterwards is between me and my Almighty Father in heaven.”

They shook hands again. A stab of pain from the rancher’s squeeze made Fisk wince.
The man had probably milked a million cows in his lifetime. What a grip!
--

The truck sputtered off and grey fumes hung in the air along with stirred dust.
The road had stopped being paved a hundred yards upwind.
Developers had gone belly up. Either that or the city took one look at prospects for for the Shopping Center and pulled the plug.
Joe Fisk took out a pair of Dollar Store glasses and squinted hard at the notepaper.
His lips moved as he read.

“ I know this address. Don’t I?”

_______

An hour later, after an ugly breakfast at the Waffle House (Which Glen used to call the Awful House) Fisk pulled his 1970 blue Ford Maverick into the last parking space in front of the DEW DROP INN. Right next to it stood a familiar Bar.

“I’ve haven’t been here in month of Sundays.” He mumbled to himself.

As Fisk pushed opened the creaky door, bright daylight on one side of the door gave way to a suffocating darkness inside. The air-conditioning unit clattered like a sinking destroyer on Pearl Harbor day.

Joe Fisk stood shivering, waiting for his eyes to adjust to darkness.
A silky female voice floated above the darkness and clatter.

“Good to see you again, Joseph.”

“What? Who is that? I can’t see you.”

Her velvet voice came closer and a familiar scent of Emeraude perfume smashed into Joe Fisk’s brain like Archie Moore’s boxing glove.

“Oh Jesus! Rosemary? Is that you?”

At that instant, a single light overhead blinked on and a Disco ball spun above his head.
A blaring juke box rumbled alive.

“It’s wonderful to see my handsome Joseph--such a wicked-wicked boy.”

A woman's face magically appeared. She stepped under an orange spotlight.
A garish lipstick smudged mouth widened into a kind of clown red smile.

Joe Fisk froze in horror

“ Oh, God. I don’t believe it. Rosemary Rosenbaum.”

“You mean, Rosemary Clegg. I’m a newlywed, Joseph.”

Joe Fisk shut his eyes and swallowed hard.
The shivering detective flinched as a very hot torso pulled in next to him--clenching him in a bear hug, squeezing the air out of his lungs. His mind suddenly stopped working.

“Why is it so damned cold in here, Rosemary?”

All he could think to say.

"Hot women are dangerous, Honey. A married woman needs to play it cool.”

The memory of a beautiful woman now tore away from Joe Fisk’s mind like those old billboard signs along the highway.
Beauty Queen meets entropy up close and personal.
His first love, Rosie Rosenbaum was extinct; replace by cosmetic surgery’s worst of all nightmares! Nipped, tucked, stretched, lipo-suctioned Rosie Clegg had replaced her.

Joe Fisk suddenly felt very old.

“Joseph, let me ask you something, sweetheart--do you still like cheap whiskey and dill pickles before noon?”

She had let go her python squeeze around Fisk’s body and he was able to catch his breath and clear his head a little.

“Sure I do. Yeah. Of course! Say--you’ve got a pretty damn good memory for an Old Broad.”

The woman’s whole body stiffened.
Her face--it twisted from cheerleader to executioner in the flash of an instant.
Joe cursed himself for his big mouth, as usual.

“Don’t take it the wrong way, Rosemary. I’m a big kidder, remember? I know I look like a stack of turds. But not you. You’re even more beautiful than 20 years ago. And well-I’m jealous. Yeah. I’m just envious of your...um..perfection after all these years.”

He lied and kept on lying until her hard face softened and she willed herself back into calm acceptance.
A retreat into the dream of eternal youth and beauty.

____

They'd ended up in her "office" in back of the bar.
It was obviously the office of a European male. Nothing feminine about it.
The Dutchman. Her husband. Where was this guy?
He asked casually and Rosie deflected.
She wanted only one thing--to see if she could still burn down the town.
Fisk struggled to keep things light and impersonal but it was an uphill battle.

“Why are you afraid of me, Joseph? You said it was too cold. Am I too hot for you?”

“It ain’t Romeo and Juliet for us anymore. I’m being respectable. That’s all.”

She blazed!
“So--I’m NOT respectable? Is that what you mean? You sound just like my boyfriend.”

“I meant to say--I’m being RESPECTFUL and it came out wrong. Sorry.”

“You Freud me Jane?”

It had gone on like that until the husband walked in. He was a big man.
He filled the doorway with menace.
The second he appeared, everything went silent.
Three strangers. Staring. Who would speak first?

What would Fisk say, he wondered.
The Dutchman didn’t blink; he simply turned and walked out.
Strange!

Rosie Clegg glanced hard at Fisk and ran out calling after her husband.

Joe Fisk didn’t move for minute or two.

He sighed and finally relaxed.

He spoke aloud--just to himself.

“Well now, that went well.”

___
BLUE CANARY

It was mid-afternoon as Fisk staggered out of the DEW DROP INN on wobbly legs.
It wasn’t the cheap liquor.
It wasn’t the erosion of beauty on his old flame either.

He shambled out with the sound of her voice flying around the inside of his head like bats at Carlsbad Caverns.
It was the impact of having to refuse sex to a woman he had worshiped.
A lady who had never been refused in her whole life!
Worse than all that--this was his client’s “Rosie.”

“Christ on a crutch!” He shouted

Joe Fisk sat behind the wheel of his Ford trying to clear his mind.
Self-inventory was his specialty.
For him, life itself had pretzeled.
His favorite phrase. “Life has pretzeled.”

He mean every part of him twisted back and around and under and over.
The End is the Beginning. Karma.
All that religion and philosophy and bullshit was true.
His Father, his grandmother, they knew what to expect out of life.
You made your own nest--or you fouled it.
A man always pays for his sins. Eventually.

Joe Fisk shook his head with moist eyes.
He wasn’t any good at despair. It was too self-indulgent.
He was a failed policeman who had turned to Private investigation.
Last rung on the ladder to Hell.

Cops...old cops...what was it they did?

He finally remembered. They went Blue Canary.
(Coal miners used a canary down in the mine to let them know when the air turned toxic. A dead canary meant it was time to get the hell out.)
Cops and old detectives went Blue Canary.
It meant slow suicide by going soft -- trying some impossible Mitzvah, some heroic good deed to clear the slate on a bad conscience for all the bad shit!

Did it work? Playing hero?
Is God gonna smile at the end and say, “Nice try, Joseph! Come on up"?

He was self-hating Jew. He’d changed his name.
Joseph Goldman had climbed into a different identity: Joe Fisk.
There was no heaven. There was no Paradise.
There was black coffee, hard justice. PERIOD!

Joe Fisk started the blue Maverick and found the gear.
It was worth a try.
For old time’s sake.

Fisk flicked his eyes up into the rear view mirror.

"What would Mike Hammer do?"

He knew the answer already. It was on his hand-lettered sign his Father had printed for him.

“WHY BOTHER?

The 1970 Blue Ford Maverick kicked up a cloud of dust like the Lone Ranger’s horse, Silver, on that old black and white TV at his Bubbe’s house.

“I’m dissipated but I ain’t licked yet, Bubbe. You get what you give.”

It would be half past Four when Fisk would pull up in front of his ironic “Detective” Agency sign. Yeah, ironic. He had argued with the sign painter and pissed him off--so
the bastard had climbed back up on his scaffold and added the big quotation marks around the word “Detective”--as if to say--’Don’t be fooled by this shlemiel.”
Now Fisk enjoyed seeing himself as ironic.
It fit his self image not a little.

As he pulled up to the front of his storefront office he saw it.
The window was busted.
Blood pooled on the steps.
A body curled into a fetal position waited to greet him.

After the cops arrived, he got the word. The corpse was Bram Clegg - the big Dutchman.
How in hell?
It was impossible for Rosie’s husband to just walk out of that office, jump into a fast car and race over to Fisk’s place and get himself murdered BEFORE Joe himself arrived.

He gave his story to the Chief of Police and got a free lecture for his trouble.
Now it was time to shape up, get serious and--just get real.

“WHY BOTHER?”
He spoke it aloud.

“It’s up to me to repair what’s broken in this world.
This one’s for you, Pop. Mazel Tov!”

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black coffee, hard justice by T. Walstrom

Note: recorded on a lousy Memo recorder on my iPhone :)

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Justice-but is it really?

by TerryWalstrom in

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justice: individuals or groups?.

1. you commit the crime--you must do the time.2.

those aren't your fingerprints on the murder weapon--you're exonerated.. justice = you break it--you buy it.

TerryWalstrom

Adam wanted to be like his cloud Papa.
He also wanted to know Good from Bad.

Crimes?

The whole doctrine of one man bringing condemnation is the best
ancient minds could come up with, I suppose.
At least it seemed to get halfway toward explaining why God allows suffering.
As far as Justice is concerned--I think we're just more enlightened now.

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Justice-but is it really?

by TerryWalstrom in

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friends

justice: individuals or groups?.

1. you commit the crime--you must do the time.2.

those aren't your fingerprints on the murder weapon--you're exonerated.. justice = you break it--you buy it.

TerryWalstrom

JUSTICE: Individuals or Groups?

1. You commit the crime--you must do the time.
2. Those aren't your fingerprints on the murder weapon--you're exonerated.

JUSTICE = You break it--you buy it.
The individual gets what is deserved and does not get what they don't deserve.
________
What happens if you shift responsibility from the individual to a Group instead?

_______

THE SINS of the FATHERS

For all the times you kill the harmless snake in error, the one time you destroy the poisonous snake--you survive.

INDIVIDUAL identity/responsibility disappears when GROUP identity appears.

Arabs vs Jews
Catholics vs Protestants
Sunni vs Shiites
Muslim vs Hindu
Irish vs British
Cowboys vs Indians
Blacks vs Whites
_____

JUSTICE works for the individual deed
Justice is corrupted when Group is substituted

Tribalism, Nationalism, Group Thinking leads to
the Fallacy of Category Error.

"The Jews killed Jesus."
"The only good Indian is a dead Indian."
“Kill them all and let God sort them out.”

______

We have choices.
Justice or Social Justice?

Justice looks at individuals.
Social Justice looks at Groups.

Which world do you wish to live in?

"You broke it--you pay for it"
or
"All White People are oppressors."

________

Today, examine your thinking.
Do you see individuals or do you think : categories of groups?

For instance: IMMIGRANTS

A. For all the times you kill the harmless snake in error, the one time you destroy the poisonous snake--you survive.

or
B. Vet case by case, person by person

GROUP-THINK (Nineteen Eighty-Four by George Orwell)

"The more amiability there is among the members of a policy-making in group, the greater the danger that independent critical thinking will be replaced by group-think, which is likely to result in irrational and dehumanizing actions directed against individuals in the out group."

Disastrous decisions are made when decisions occur largely because of group-think, which prevented contradictory views from being expressed and subsequently evaluated.

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Three Questions...Agree or Disagree?

by TerryWalstrom in

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agree...or...disagree.

three questions (answer them in your own head).

1. is it okay to punish people who have done nothing wrong?2.

TerryWalstrom

JUSTICE requires an understanding of Cause and Effect in a particular sense of individual responsibility.
The outcome can be bad or good for the individual causing an effect.

Examples:
1. You commit the crime--you must do the time.
2. You authored the screenplay--you deserve the credit.
3. You weren't present when the murder was committed--you're innocent
4. Those aren't your fingerprints on the murder weapon--you're excluded as a suspect

Justice means getting what you deserve
the corollary is "not getting" what you don't deserve.

ADDING the word "SOCIAL" in front of the word JUSTICE
tampers with the inherent balance of Cause and Effect and destroys the meaning instantly.

In effect, it carves out a suspension of the rules of responsibility

to apply special pleading.

Social Justice subverts Cause and Effect by reassigning responsibility to GROUPS rather than individuals.
Example:
Instead of saying: "Only those individuals who bought slaves and worked them on plantations are guilty of crimes against humanity"...
Social Justice would say: "Slave owners were White men and therefore all White people are guilty of crimes against humanity."

This places the retributive power of Justice in the hands of anybody who can get away with REDEFINING cause and effect successfully.

It also creates a ripple effect over large spans of time.

"If you belong to a racial group which was enslaved 200 years ago, you must automatically be viewed as though you too have suffered slavery."

This is sometimes referred to as THE SINS of the FATHERS.

There is a physiology in human beings which triggers the same startled fright at the sight of ANY snake regardless of whether it is venomous or not. (Better Safe than Sorry).

Applying that "natural instinct" to public policy is disastrous.
"The only good Indian is a dead Indian."

JUSTICE is the cornerstone of a well-maintained society.
Justice IS "social."

The introduction of the fallacy of Category Error only destroys that foundation.