Cofty,
The fact that YOU have decided that you don't want to know God, or refuse the very concept of His existence, or, in the event that God exists, you find Him unworthy of your in-demand approval, only tells me that God is respectful of our own free will / free choice, something I'm sure you cherish. If you refuse to accept God's hope and you find no comfort in it, and choose to evangelize the believers about the absolute void that you believe that evidence supports, it's all good and dandy. Don't expect to partake in that hope, though. Don't mock the hope that others have, for it's better to find comfort in hope than to live without it. I hope in your lifetime you still have a change of heart, is all I can say, as it's never too late until we die.
Eden