They can get me for apostacy. Also, they had another brother call and confirm my desire to not be a JW. (which means there are two witnesses)
I guess its official, then.
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my worst fears were realized
by magotan inim on my phone, so im really limited.
i came out to my family about my doubts and my sexuality.
shit hit the fan.
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my worst fears were realized
by magotan inim on my phone, so im really limited.
i came out to my family about my doubts and my sexuality.
shit hit the fan.
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magotan
interesting. They called me a few mins after I didn't show up....i simply told them I love them, but nothing is going to stop me from doing what Im going to do.
I guess this means Im not a JW anymore.
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my worst fears were realized
by magotan inim on my phone, so im really limited.
i came out to my family about my doubts and my sexuality.
shit hit the fan.
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magotan
z have an "investigation" to be done by two JW "elders".
I told them I'd meet with them, but I have no interest in doing so. Should I call them and say "I like boys, will probably date and or sleep with one in the near future, and I think this religion is a sham that abuses it's members and steals their lives." That statement would put me out.
I think my mother and father wanted me to stay at home because it would be an excuse to interact with me, but I would not really be allowed to live my life. By leaving, I've spared them essentially shunning by proxy (since my dad isn't an Elder in the congregation anymore, he can't really "break the rules") by having me in their house. But of the same token, now they HAVE to shun me if they want to remain in good standing in the congregation.
I feel like I have nothing really to say to them; their "Investigation" is to essentially see if I have done any "wrongdoing" or "serious sin" and whether or not they should form a Judicial Committee to put me out. -
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my worst fears were realized
by magotan inim on my phone, so im really limited.
i came out to my family about my doubts and my sexuality.
shit hit the fan.
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magotan
Yeah, I'm OK. I'm in such an emotional wreck right now....
I found a place to stay, and I'm hitting it off pretty well with my roommate.
My mother called me on impulse today. She understands that it's more than just sexual; it's a desire to be with someone you love. But she can't condone. We just sat and hugged and cried. She feels like I'm shutting her out (maybe I am, IDK. I have gotten a new bank account and I'm filing for educational financial indepenendence) and doesn't want me to shut her out of my life. But obviously, I can't stay there if I'm going to "live the homosexual lifestyle". I don't know what to say here. I have my doubts, and obviously, she pretty much dismissed them (the UN scandal) as "apostate lies", but I could tell internally she likely thought about a lot of things.
I'm still not sure if I got kicked out, or if I left. When I told them, I was told that if I wanted to be gay and not a JW, I needed to leave. But I was on the same time told that I needed to stay because I had nowhere else to go. Then I was told that I was "always welcome" but of the same token, they can't condone my lifestyle so I wouldn't be able to stay. I believe cognitive dissonance is the term.
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my worst fears were realized
by magotan inim on my phone, so im really limited.
i came out to my family about my doubts and my sexuality.
shit hit the fan.
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magotan
My cell number is the same, though.
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my worst fears were realized
by magotan inim on my phone, so im really limited.
i came out to my family about my doubts and my sexuality.
shit hit the fan.
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magotan
I guess a JC has been formed. My dad called me, to make sure I was OK, told me I had mail, and that "The Brothers" will be calling. The conversation lasted maybe 15 seconds.
I honestly wish he never called.
I'm not going to entertain the notion that that circus has any power over me.
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WT wisdom - Same sex attraction does not mean you are gay
by irondork ingiven the confusion faced by gay youth in trying to navigate through a larger, hetero culture, the last thing these kids need is for a religious "authority" to come along and tell them they don't really exist.
that is exactly what the wt has done with this article at jw.org:.
http://www.jw.org/en/bible-teachings/family/teenagers/ask/pressure-to-be-gay/.
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magotan
I used to think I could be accepted, but when I came out a few days ago, the first thing they told me is that I WASN'T GAY. I found it to be insulting.
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Why do Jw's have to pay for CO's expenses?
by nolongerconfused inthis is something that has always bothered me!.
why do rank and file have to pay for co's do's expenses, car, health insurance, meals, etc, etc...?.
didn't the apostle paul say that all christians have to be self sufficient and work?, not depending on anyone else and cause a burden?.
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magotan
On another note, I never understood why CO's drove Buicks, which are luxury cars. Chevrolet too good for them?
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my worst fears were realized
by magotan inim on my phone, so im really limited.
i came out to my family about my doubts and my sexuality.
shit hit the fan.
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magotan
Golly, thanks for the support. If I weren't in such a whirlwind right now, I'd respond more elaborately.
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WT wisdom - Same sex attraction does not mean you are gay
by irondork ingiven the confusion faced by gay youth in trying to navigate through a larger, hetero culture, the last thing these kids need is for a religious "authority" to come along and tell them they don't really exist.
that is exactly what the wt has done with this article at jw.org:.
http://www.jw.org/en/bible-teachings/family/teenagers/ask/pressure-to-be-gay/.
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magotan
I see you looked up the article after our conversation.
When I read it, it made me want to kill myself. After I stopped feeling that way, I realized what an insulting load of shit it really is.