so are there really co's and elders who are undercover appostates??
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The idea of an "Undercover Brother" LOL.....and one in the Society....this just makes me laugh...cant get that dang movie outta my head...and the idea of Eddie Griffin walking into the WTBTS in full out Undacovah Brotha gear just seems like a riot...
-Z-
i just received a message from one of my closest friends.
we grew up together and were/are as close as brothers.
his father was like a second dad to mehe died two days ago after two weeks in the hospital.
Losing him twice....Lost my dad once when i got expunged from the r/f of the society vomital page and then again when he died...I can TOTALLY feel ya dude...and those who have died before us have paved the way for us to maintain with even more focused of purpose on what it is that we NEED to do-make change.
Change. The one thing that the WTBTS does not wish to acknowledge MUST happen in order for ANY of us (JW, XJW, DF, APOSTATE, NonJW, ALL) to become a bigger face on the earth-a HUMAN race. I can still recall hearing the same talks and the same drivel shovelled deep within our orifices that we thoguht would save us into the "New System" but ultimately I cannot remember any talks that spoke to HUMAN equality and HUMAN fair treatment regardless of race, creed, gender, sexual preference, religious preference and ANY other kind of categories that humans fit themselves into.
Lost my father....after easily 10-15 years plus of estrangement but somehow I feel as though this is the time and this is the place in which change CAN happen on a LARGE scale....maybe...just MAYBE he had to die in order for this change to occur...MAYBE it was not his place to make the next evolutionary step towards true equality but his death has sped up my own progress towards a bigger, better more HUMAN lifestyle.
And D, we ARE known...for each one of us that falls along the wayside there is a level of strength that is imparted from the anger and the pain that the WTBTS inflicts upon us and we USE it....more and more and MORE the ones who DONT know us are the ones who choose to look the other way and dig deeper into their own ignorance and pit of naive thought.
You said, "One day there will be enough of us to call these groups to an accounting for their abuse of position, and I hope I live to see it."
I say lets BE the cornerstone upon which the REAL truth is built-human truth...ya got my fires burning man....
I may have lost my pop July 3rd, the day before the celebration of independance for the USA, but it was a day that will have forever funneled a critical line of thinking into a birth of sorts into my own head....this baby is gonna grow and grow....we WILL be around to see them bite their collective fingers when our voices are too strong and loud to be ignored. Sigh...im gettin melodramatic again...(chuckle dammit man!)
-Z-
i have a friend here that recently became engaged, and i was priviledged to be present for the event and took pictures for them.
i am posting this particular picture for a few reasons.... for the couple, i hope the future holds as much beauty as this place we call home.
i hope you are always able to look towards it together, as a team.
For the well wishers of our future thank you....for any others who really dont know the backstory like WLG says no biggie...we are content to know where we will be more like 30-80 years in the future and if we are ripping anything from each other it will be the blanket that we cant decide who will get more of on whatever given night...;) Its ok...but in a year or two when im STILL here and still with mrs zanex....I think i will have the last chuckle...
The love that you see in that picture has a lot of hard work that was put into it...there is a few years behind that picture....anyhow...
i have a friend here that recently became engaged, and i was priviledged to be present for the event and took pictures for them.
i am posting this particular picture for a few reasons.... for the couple, i hope the future holds as much beauty as this place we call home.
i hope you are always able to look towards it together, as a team.
Look at that guy! He has like NO ass on him!! Lol...oh wait...thats me... SHE on the other hand..rawr...
In all seriousness...thanx mang for being a true example of REAL brotherly love..not the canned shite they spoon fed us going to meetings for years...its been a long time since I have felt that sense of genuine realness in someone...as much as you say this gave you something to believe in that goes BOTH ways mang...you are an amazing guy! dude
I look forward to whatever the future brings...im sure it will be a wild ride.
-Z
(AWESOME pix dude..the rest are grrrrrreeeaaattt! bein down on that knee over the gorge got a bit chilly...lol)
ok, so i'm looking for a new book to start reading.... any genre, any style.. what are you favorite books of all time?.
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I enjoyed "A wrinlke in time" Madeline E' engle (spelling of authors name might be off on that one but the title of the book is right)
started out like any other normal day..with plans to go to taos with my girlfriend and a good buddy o mine (wlg) sorry mang...had to give u some recognition on this one...anyhow..we went out to a nice place for some breakfast..wandered around taos, went to the taos pueblos to get a chance to watch the native americans dance at the taos pueblo...then we went out to the taos gorge..which for those who dont know is a quite big hole in the ground bout a mile down...the bridge is somewhat a daunting look down for ones who have never seen it before.... anyhow...my girlfriend at first refused to step one foot out onto the bridge but with a little coaxing and a promise to make sure she wouldnt fall off i gradually brought her out to the middle of the bridge where there is a small outcropping where one can stand and look out over the gorge...we stood there staring over the side of the bridge for a few minutes then i slowly took her hand in mine and looked deep into her eyes.... ....and i dropped to one knee....(quite funny too cuz initially she was like what are you doing?
)....i still had her hand in mine and she was staring down at me like i was doing something silly or humorous like is my usual personality trait...i stared at her for a minute or two and said a few sentances of which are too personal to bring up here and then i asked her to marry me..... she looked at me and said "what?!
are you kidding me?!
ROTFLMAO.....ahh the old "ball and chain" analogy...gotta love it...its a good thing this ball and chain comes with a helluva chef attached to it! (I mean her not me...lol)
And thanx EVERYONE!!! it feels a bit different calling her my fiancee but she still looks exquisite to me first thing in the morning and last thing b4 i go to sleep at nite...maybe thats the REAL truth behind life and sharing it with someone...
-Z-
started out like any other normal day..with plans to go to taos with my girlfriend and a good buddy o mine (wlg) sorry mang...had to give u some recognition on this one...anyhow..we went out to a nice place for some breakfast..wandered around taos, went to the taos pueblos to get a chance to watch the native americans dance at the taos pueblo...then we went out to the taos gorge..which for those who dont know is a quite big hole in the ground bout a mile down...the bridge is somewhat a daunting look down for ones who have never seen it before.... anyhow...my girlfriend at first refused to step one foot out onto the bridge but with a little coaxing and a promise to make sure she wouldnt fall off i gradually brought her out to the middle of the bridge where there is a small outcropping where one can stand and look out over the gorge...we stood there staring over the side of the bridge for a few minutes then i slowly took her hand in mine and looked deep into her eyes.... ....and i dropped to one knee....(quite funny too cuz initially she was like what are you doing?
)....i still had her hand in mine and she was staring down at me like i was doing something silly or humorous like is my usual personality trait...i stared at her for a minute or two and said a few sentances of which are too personal to bring up here and then i asked her to marry me..... she looked at me and said "what?!
are you kidding me?!
Thanx...I thought my goose was cooked when she initially refused to go out onto the bridge...I was like "argggg dammit" it was a beautiful day..the clouds rolled in it started to snow as we drove back into Santa Fe....she passed out cold on the drive back to albuquerque...(chuckle) she still isnt used to the elevation...caligirl that she is. lol....and thanx to everyone for the well wishes!
Things are looking up....if I can be so bold as to say that...
started out like any other normal day..with plans to go to taos with my girlfriend and a good buddy o mine (wlg) sorry mang...had to give u some recognition on this one...anyhow..we went out to a nice place for some breakfast..wandered around taos, went to the taos pueblos to get a chance to watch the native americans dance at the taos pueblo...then we went out to the taos gorge..which for those who dont know is a quite big hole in the ground bout a mile down...the bridge is somewhat a daunting look down for ones who have never seen it before.... anyhow...my girlfriend at first refused to step one foot out onto the bridge but with a little coaxing and a promise to make sure she wouldnt fall off i gradually brought her out to the middle of the bridge where there is a small outcropping where one can stand and look out over the gorge...we stood there staring over the side of the bridge for a few minutes then i slowly took her hand in mine and looked deep into her eyes.... ....and i dropped to one knee....(quite funny too cuz initially she was like what are you doing?
)....i still had her hand in mine and she was staring down at me like i was doing something silly or humorous like is my usual personality trait...i stared at her for a minute or two and said a few sentances of which are too personal to bring up here and then i asked her to marry me..... she looked at me and said "what?!
are you kidding me?!
Started out like any other normal day..with plans to go to Taos with my girlfriend and a good buddy o mine (WLG) sorry mang...had to give u some recognition on this one...anyhow..we went out to a nice place for some breakfast..wandered around taos, went to the taos pueblos to get a chance to watch the Native Americans dance at the Taos Pueblo...then we went out to the Taos Gorge..which for those who dont know is a quite big hole in the ground bout a mile down...the bridge is somewhat a daunting look down for ones who have never seen it before...
Anyhow...my girlfriend at first refused to step one foot out onto the bridge but with a little coaxing and a promise to make sure she wouldnt fall off i gradually brought her out to the middle of the bridge where there is a small outcropping where one can stand and look out over the gorge...we stood there staring over the side of the bridge for a few minutes then i slowly took her hand in mine and looked deep into her eyes...
....and i dropped to one knee....(quite funny too cuz initially she was like what are you doing?)....i still had her hand in mine and she was staring down at me like I was doing something silly or humorous like is my usual personality trait...I stared at her for a minute or two and said a few sentances of which are too personal to bring up here and then i asked her to marry me....
She looked at me and said "What?! Are you kidding me?! You bring me all the way out to this bridge over the middle of a mile deep hole, scare the crap outta me, shock the heck outta me and you expect me to say YES to you? YES,of course I'll marry you!!!!"
Shortly after the tears started on her face....but tears of joy they were...the rest of the day was filled with romping through the hills of taos, then back to Santa Fe to get my ride and head back home to Albuquerque with my fiancee...hmmm interesting word that is...but I feel good. With so much crisis with my pop dying and my homecoming to NM and facing down the witnesses of my old days it felt GREAT when she said yes!
Wanna give MUCH thanx to WLG...u da shit mang....those pix are stupendous...
"repetition for empahsis" whoa...some bad mescaline flashbacks on that one... thank goodness it passes with time...
i am jonesing for some white castles!
but, sadly, they are not in this area.
those little burgers with the onions fresh off the grill, oh!!
NM...Home of the Blakes Lotaburger...double meat green chile cheeseburger..(drooling)
CA....In 'n Out....double meat...animal style...but easy on the onions. Good stuff.
Anything else is uncivilized...lol...
