I've been extremely depressed the last four or five days (fear of death, etc.). This morning, I made myself get up at 5:30AM and go to the gym and get some major exercise in before work. Exercise and good eating help make those rough spots easier.
zenpunk
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I Have A Phycological Problem.
by Undecided inrecently, for a couple of months i have been nostalgic, thinking about my past.
i have visited places where i grew up, my grandparents old homeplace, the place where i was born, the old part of town where my parents used to shop, etc.
things sort of seem sureal sometimes.
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zenpunk
I liked knocking on a few not-at-homes, then driving to the farthest territory, parking the car and walking it (it was very rural, so if you knocked on 10 more houses the entire day you were doing well). Then there was that late afternoon study. I had one study that used to make me dinner.
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What's your favorite kitchen..........
by scootergirl inokay, okay........quiet the moans down!
this is a fluff topic, but i need fluff right about now!
lol .
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zenpunk
A huge Wok and a rice cooker. You can throw together something fabulous in a half hour that's actually good for you.
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Are you the black sheep?
by sleepy in.
theres got to be quite a few here who, like me are the only onbe to turn "apostate" in their family.. although you know you've done the right thing, all your family think either you have been mislead by satan or you have turned evil.. how do you feel around your family,and do you wonder what they think of you?
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zenpunk
My family are very blunt about how they feel about me. I'm going to die when the end comes. When they are grandparents I wonder if they think their grandchild will die too.
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SilentLambs - Why A Successful Movement?
by Larry inthe silentlamb issue is major!
this movement is truly historical and i am proud to be associated with it.
but i was wondering, why is the silentlamb issue getting the major focus?
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zenpunk
That's one point I especially noticed last night. Bill is a good speaker. But, not just that, he's honest and sincere and it shows when he is interviewed.
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Abuse survivers - how did you recover?
by larc ini have read some heart rending stories here about abuse.
some have commented on their recovery, but many have not.
i am very interested as to what helped you get over a terrible experience.
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zenpunk
How does this affect your relationship with men?
I endured a lot of physical abuse and even more mental abuse at the hands of my father. He was also very mentally abusive to my mother as well, to the point where she had a four-year depression bender on the living room couch. But on the outside we were the "coolest" JW family. People wonder why I'm not spoiled as an only child. This is why. I was literally tortured off and on for years. It affected my schoolwork, my friends (what friends?), everything. When I reached my mid-teens I started to fight back. My father and I would beat each other senseless in the front yard.
In my late teens, I was in a relationship with a brother for a couple of months. My parents loved him but I ended it right away - I just wasn't interested. He kept hanging around with my family though. It was just like hanging out with dad, except this guy was 6'2' and a military man before he found the "truth". I was no match. But deep down the beatings were pleasantly familiar. It was obvious to the congregation what was going on, I even talked to the elders a couple of times, but people just let me talk. One day a sister was visiting and staying with my mom and walked in on a "beating session". When I saw her face everything became clear. I ran away to Ireland to get away from everyone. I told the congregation I was serving where the need was great but, truth be told, I needed to go as far away as possible.
It was tough dealing with men after that. I even have had issues with sexuality and sexual preference. But fortunately I broke the cycle. I'm married to a calm sincere British guy who has also escaped the terrors of growing up in the organization. I have never been hit or abused since. But the pain and memories will always be there. You just can't let them consume you. I just sort of put them to the side of me, not forgetting them, and not living entrenched in them.
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Publishers' Comments-Bill Bowen
by twain30 inthese are some comments that some have made to me recently:.
at meeting-a brother: "that anderson sister was lying and here's how i know-no sister has access to those files, only brothers in position do.".
in field service-a sister: "look what happens when we don't wait on jehovah and take matters into our own hands.".
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zenpunk
Add to that:
My mother's comment: "Well this is just the latest Witchhunt by the media, first the Catholic Church, now us".
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SilentLambs - Why A Successful Movement?
by Larry inthe silentlamb issue is major!
this movement is truly historical and i am proud to be associated with it.
but i was wondering, why is the silentlamb issue getting the major focus?
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zenpunk
I think its a big issue for many reasons. First the victims here are completely innocent young people begging for someone to stop this travesty and yet they are shamed and not taken seriously by the elders. Also, in some states what has happened here is illegal, to not report these molestors to the police. I've always thought the JWs were evil in their doublespeak and doublestandards, however, this is the lowest anyone could possibly sink as a human being.
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Bleep Poll: Fair turnabout
by The Devil insince bleep has posted his poll reguarding god i decided to post a poll on what afterlife torture bleep should recieve from yours truly.. here are your choices:.
a. fire pit.
b. frozen tombs.
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zenpunk
Ten years from now, when he wakes up and realizes he's been a fool...that will be punishment enough.
However, in the meantime, the horny x-presidents sounds good to me!
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ARE YOU UPSET THAT YOU DIDN"T GO TO COLLEGE?
by minimus ini have read of some people's bitterness because they were denied the opportunity to go to college.
during the 60's and 70's the society really discouraged any education other than what was necessary.
since the end was so near, especially around 1975, anybody that decided to go to "higher education" was considered very weak and unbalanced.
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zenpunk
This is one of my biggest reasons for being angry at the WTS. Especially when, after taking a firm stand of not going to college and pioneering, a prominant elder sent his 2 girls off the university, all expenses paid. And here I was cleaning offices at four o'clock in the morning. Fortunately that has all changed and I get to use my brain for a living now. Its tough though, going to a private college full of kids ages 18 to 22 when your 31 years old. Sometimes I let it get to me and I have to fight back the anger. But, the point is I'm going. Even though my parents will never understand or be proud, I'm proud of me. My husband also started college last year.