The complete zombie state I would sink into - it was like my brain was suffocating! Eventually I began having actual physical reactions to going to the KH.
I also resented the fact that we had to dedicate two evenings and the entire weekend to this nonsense. Even AA doesn't require that many meetings! And they have the courtesy to keep it short!
My feeling was that if we were going to meet three times a week, it should be for fifteen minutes followed by a hoe-down. And only once a week should be mandatory!
I couldn't do theater because I was trying to be good and schedule my hobby around my religious schedule. Putting spiritual things first! HA!
CZAR