It's just this empty sinking feeling, realizing it was just a big 'lie' from the Russell/Rutherford onward. Sick....
These men created what was called a confidence game where what they were selling was exploited from the public's general basic belief in the bible.
Their personal endeavors created a fair amount of power and control over others and a accumulative amount of assets in land and money as well..
The kind of power and money that certain men dream about, as if they built their very own self made " Kingdom " .