@ Perry: Oh I tried for 40 years to be the man that I imagined
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"Do or do not. There is no try." --- Yoda
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You see, Perry, your failure is fully attributable to the fact that you were only trying instead of doing, all the while waiting for god/the tooth fairy/fill-in- the-blank-with-your-fictional-character-of-choice here, to do your work for you. Even if the whole 'god does the heavy lifting for you' concept was true, why would you feel any desire to serve a god who created you so woefully inadequate that you can't get yourself through life without his having to change your diapers for you everyday???
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@ Perry: Oh I am a sinner alright.
How does your self-flagellation serve you??? Is it an easy out instead of just acknowledging you still have work to do?