WELL I SEE I MADE AN IMPRESSION WITH SOMEONE AT THE LAST APOSTOFEST...HAHA THANKS DAVE...YOU'RE A SWEETIE.. AND WHO IS THIS MARRIED GUY WHO IS MAKIN A PASS AT ME...MIGHT KNOW HE is from Florida... Thats where I unloaded my last husband,, ( the annointed,scizophrenic, deadbeat dad one..about 17yrs ago...) oh the memories...OH WHERES A VINNIE WHEN YOU NEED ONE...... so guys or gals out there in ex-jdub land...I will hang on for alittle while and assume you all dont remember me from the previous chili--cook-offapostofest in 2004...where i believe Little Toe who is about to wed Xena,,was the winner of the chili--cook-off.. see now these are the good memories...I like that and need that...elsewhere are you there,, thanks for responding crumpet and i would love to meet you...I may check into that hotel near airport,, I really havent decided yet how it will all go..for me...
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PLEASE HELP ME GET TO DALLAS CRAWFISH PARTY ON MAY 6TH...
by wildfire inhello dear friends...
i have a chance to get to dallas for the crawfish party on may 6th..i live in austin, tx and was planning on taking a bus to dallas on sunday....( i really dont like to drive in dallas)
the problem is i need someone to help me to get from point a to point b//namely from the bus station to the party and from there i would need a place to stay for sunday night...my funds are limited so was hoping to room with someone at the nearby hotel..or someones home if thats possible..
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PLEASE HELP ME GET TO DALLAS CRAWFISH PARTY ON MAY 6TH...
by wildfire inhello dear friends...
i have a chance to get to dallas for the crawfish party on may 6th..i live in austin, tx and was planning on taking a bus to dallas on sunday....( i really dont like to drive in dallas)
the problem is i need someone to help me to get from point a to point b//namely from the bus station to the party and from there i would need a place to stay for sunday night...my funds are limited so was hoping to room with someone at the nearby hotel..or someones home if thats possible..
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HELLO DEAR FRIENDS... I have a chance to get to dallas for the crawfish party on May 6th..I live in Austin, Tx and was planning on taking a bus to Dallas on Sunday....( I really dont like to drive in Dallas) the problem is I need someone to help me to get from point A to point B//namely from the bus station to the party and from there I would need a place to stay for sunday night...My funds are limited so was hoping to room with someone at the nearby hotel..or someones home if thats possible.. I hope I will get some response,, have been very depressed lately and I know a good apostofest is the right prescription for me...the last apostofest I went to was in june of 2004 ,,so I am really overdue.. so if some one going can lend a helping hand , I would be sooo grateful..i will pm my phone number to anyone who thinks they can help me..... SO TO RECAP; I NEED A RIDE AND A ROOM FOR 1 NIGHT...ANY TAKERS......PLEASE HELP ME ,,
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When a family member has bi-polar.
by purplesofa inas some of you know, my daughter has been diagnosed with bi-polar disorder.
its been years of dealing with it, until a proper diagnosis, plus she has addictions....alcohol and drugs.
she did get approved for disability and just now has medical benefits.
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jgnat and purplesofa. My heart goes out to you and your family,,,but believe me you are not alone.. I was diagnosed with depression and post =traumatic stress..for years.. but I was also having the manic signs so I was diagnosed three years ago with Bi-Polar I. It took me awhile before I got the right combinations of meds..I am on effexor and risperdal and doing quite well.. I also have a 27 year-old son who is paranoid schizophrenic and has been since he was 20..he has been in and out of jail.. prison...currently I rescued him from living on the streets in florida..and said he has to take meds or out he goes..he stopped taking them last month,, and panic set in,he was really bad off.halucinating...etc..well with intervention and lots of fast talking he agreed to a drug study, and now he is on an injectable schizo solution that he takes every 2 weeks... that was an answer to a prayer.. believe me ,, a journey is to be taken one step at a time.. and thats what it is like with ,, my son and myself..in this mental health crisis... But being in a highcontrol group as the jws certainly didnt make this easy at all..My ex claimed to be one of the annointed when i was married to him (he was 24)..well youknow about grandiose ideas,,and claims well I do believe now after all these years he too was schizophrenic..and has passed it on to his son.. My son was df twice from jws and this was while he was sick...those heartless,cruel bastards...and while in prison they never came to see him once..(I was a jw but still went to see my sick df son and they said nothing.....) this is good therapy,,but is hard to talk about still to this day.. just be there in anyway you can.. my prayers go with all who suffer...
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WILDFIRE IS BACK IN THE SADDLE...
by wildfire inhi gang , its good to be back ...........i have gone through 2 years of captivity ,,i have been out of the jws since 2002, i moved to austin ,,texas in 2004.. i even had the priviledge of attending a true dallas apostofest,which i will never forget..met alot of great apostates..
but for 2years i have been in a tailspin..last april my 20yr old jehovah witness daughter got married in minnesota.
oh ya i was invited, only to the wedding which was not held in a kingdom hall (because of me iam sure)..my son who was never baptized came allthe way from florida to his little sisters wedding, only to be treated like he was da or df..we were not allowed at the reception and the only pictures i got were from my other daughter who (she was studying at the time so she was allowed to stay for all the festivities..) so me and my son decided to do what any out cast would do...went drinking and checking out the quaint little town that night...had a blast...they had not won ,,i was down but not out...haha
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thanks for the warm welcome...so crash you are an austinite...thats so cool... i know xena used to live here but she is getting married to little toe next month ..so off to scotland after they wed here in the states... I dont know alot about the politics of sxsw ,,I just had a great time,,so what do you do in austin...pm me if you wish... I have tried to get online and chat at thoms but iamhaving trouble getting any response...oh well must be my magnetic personality...hahah .maybe you can help me out there...I amnot a computer geek ,, trust me on that one.... again.. my jw experience is completely crazy.. and I have the dysfunction to prove it...but I am out,and can breathe easier..not having to worry about big brother lookin over my dam shoulder.... ta ta,,take care all
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WILDFIRE IS BACK IN THE SADDLE...
by wildfire inhi gang , its good to be back ...........i have gone through 2 years of captivity ,,i have been out of the jws since 2002, i moved to austin ,,texas in 2004.. i even had the priviledge of attending a true dallas apostofest,which i will never forget..met alot of great apostates..
but for 2years i have been in a tailspin..last april my 20yr old jehovah witness daughter got married in minnesota.
oh ya i was invited, only to the wedding which was not held in a kingdom hall (because of me iam sure)..my son who was never baptized came allthe way from florida to his little sisters wedding, only to be treated like he was da or df..we were not allowed at the reception and the only pictures i got were from my other daughter who (she was studying at the time so she was allowed to stay for all the festivities..) so me and my son decided to do what any out cast would do...went drinking and checking out the quaint little town that night...had a blast...they had not won ,,i was down but not out...haha
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Yes ,,,I agree with you about nothin like a concert to bring up your spirits...thats what i have been thrivin on..I just cant believe how worthless I feel, I know the depression is creepin up on me again..as i now have to deal with my schizophrenic 26yr old son living with me,it seems I never get a break,,I will continue on...(i dont know how to put other peoples quotes in my post so i stumble through)anyway its good to be back..
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WILDFIRE IS BACK IN THE SADDLE...
by wildfire inhi gang , its good to be back ...........i have gone through 2 years of captivity ,,i have been out of the jws since 2002, i moved to austin ,,texas in 2004.. i even had the priviledge of attending a true dallas apostofest,which i will never forget..met alot of great apostates..
but for 2years i have been in a tailspin..last april my 20yr old jehovah witness daughter got married in minnesota.
oh ya i was invited, only to the wedding which was not held in a kingdom hall (because of me iam sure)..my son who was never baptized came allthe way from florida to his little sisters wedding, only to be treated like he was da or df..we were not allowed at the reception and the only pictures i got were from my other daughter who (she was studying at the time so she was allowed to stay for all the festivities..) so me and my son decided to do what any out cast would do...went drinking and checking out the quaint little town that night...had a blast...they had not won ,,i was down but not out...haha
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THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR THE WARM APOSTATE WELCOME.... I think I have come home...I enjoy hearing from new ones and also the ones I remember fondly like onacruse. frannie, I seem to remember you also , and happy you made me feel welcome...having depression and dealing with depressing events over and over can and does take its toll....but since I live in the MUSIC CAPITAL OF THE WORLD...I make full use of the nitelife and musicians ...We just ended an event called south by southwest which is about films, and musicians who come to play from all over the world...My friend and I volunteered our services so we could get in free to the venues and lordy did we have a blast... free parties..free booze and all the debauchery two single girls could handle...wow sounds like my last apostofest in 2004... thanks again,,
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WILDFIRE IS BACK IN THE SADDLE...
by wildfire inhi gang , its good to be back ...........i have gone through 2 years of captivity ,,i have been out of the jws since 2002, i moved to austin ,,texas in 2004.. i even had the priviledge of attending a true dallas apostofest,which i will never forget..met alot of great apostates..
but for 2years i have been in a tailspin..last april my 20yr old jehovah witness daughter got married in minnesota.
oh ya i was invited, only to the wedding which was not held in a kingdom hall (because of me iam sure)..my son who was never baptized came allthe way from florida to his little sisters wedding, only to be treated like he was da or df..we were not allowed at the reception and the only pictures i got were from my other daughter who (she was studying at the time so she was allowed to stay for all the festivities..) so me and my son decided to do what any out cast would do...went drinking and checking out the quaint little town that night...had a blast...they had not won ,,i was down but not out...haha
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HI GANG , ITS GOOD TO BE BACK ...........I have gone through 2 years of captivity ,,I have been out of the jws since 2002, I moved to austin ,,texas in 2004.. I even had the priviledge of attending a true Dallas apostofest,which I will never forget..met alot of great apostates.. but for 2years I have been in a tailspin..last april my 20yr old jehovah witness daughter got married in minnesota. oh ya i was invited, only to the wedding which was not held in a kingdom hall (because of me iam sure)..My son who was never baptized came allthe way from florida to his little sisters wedding, only to be treated like he was da or df..we were not allowed at the reception and the only pictures i got were from my other daughter who (she was studying at the time so she was allowed to stay for all the festivities..) So me and my son decided to do what any out cast would do...went drinking and checking out the quaint little town that night...had a blast...they had not won ,,i was down but not out...haha getting back to my other daughter who also was not baptised but decided to start studying,,and I know it was because she was jealous of her little sister who was getting a fine jw man..yikes...my dau is 23 and lived a debauched life here in austin since she was 19, living with a guy, working at a strip club...as you can see, she gave up on jws when she was young,, but now her boyfriend left her, (she was a waitress and made killer money at strip club) but alas a life of abjuct poverty ,,and self -sacrifice for god was more to her liking ..as the story goes ,, she moves inwith me ,,to save money and she studies with witnesses and even gets baptised in july 2006..of course her sister and husband came tovisit just to see her get baptised,, but they did the unthinkable of acutally going to six-flags amusement park with all of us,,of course they were far away from her elders,in minnesota.. sorry to make this a long story,, but I was not able to get on the computer because it was in my dau room and her being a witness,,well i think you know the fights, i just didnt want the drama...but now my daughter has moved in with a zealous sister who has demonized me , she hardly talks to me, but I was ok to sponge off of for almost 2 years... So I came here for encouragement, and unconditional love..i suffer from depression (doesnt everyone who got away from the cult...)and theres so much more to the story but this is a good start...thankyou for giving me your heartfelt attention...as I said its good to be back in the saddle.....
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Hi Everyone...I'm New
by exjwshell injust wanted to say hello to everyone on this forum.
i've "lurked" for quite some time, thought it was time make my first post.
my story is long and boring and too complicated to remember so the short version is this:.
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wildfire
greetings and welcome aboard.......I used to inhabit the great white north,,,,,but I have come to my senses and moved to warmer,,,more graciously endowed weather ,,, texas style....if you look at my bio you will see the nitemare I lived in for quite awhile...all of my children except one are out of the Borg........praise the Lord (and pass the ammo) any how ... thanks for lurking I did the same thing for such a long time.....but now I know I have come home....again ,,,, welcome and look forward to seeing you on chat......jus me ole wildfire.........yipppeeeeee
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Have you ever felt used?
by Country Girl ini had my birthday party/new year's day party tonight.
i have hundreds of friends, or so i thought.
how many show up?
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'Dear CG,,,,boy can I relate to feeling used....and not by my friends but by relatives...all the advice given here is soo good i really dont have much to add... just that I find you to be a truely genuine ..loving person who is a giving person... much like myself and also get into helping so much that i dont take time for my own life.....or what I want out of life....I have been very depressed ,, the holidays are not happy times for me....and not being able to see my grand kids ..well thats just the proverbial icing on the cake.....
hey girl i would have loved to come to your bday party..... I know we havent known each other long...but we have shared some precious ,,,girl talk moments that i truely cherish....and even if you are married ,, theres nothing compared to girl talk and compassion that you showed to me...give me a call ,,, we do have a lot in common.....my ears and heart are always open for ya girl friend//////love wildfire....
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A letter to MY DAUGHTER,,,,PLEASE FORGIVE ME.....
by wildfire in.
i know you come tothis site to check out things...so if this is the only way to talk toyou then i will do it and make it all public.....for all my true friends to see....i know that i didnt protect you from your step father....the blessed annointed one who made allof our lives a living hell....i was the parent,,you were the child,,,and the children are the future...(maybe home is where the heart is giving up to the one.....we spend all of our lives going out of our minds,,,looking back to our birth, those who stood up for love in spite of the hate.....) those are words of a song by live called they stood up for love....... i was in the midst of a mind--bending cult,,for so many years...and i know all of my children have suffered in one way or the other...even tho only one is still an active witness...we are all scarred and will always be...but my love for you and your brothers and sisters is the one true thing i can give you.... please dont take my grand children away from me..seeing them the other day for that brief moment gave me such happiness---i think back to the happy times when they were born and i was there for two of them....how many grand parents can say that....they will never know their grand pa ,,but dear daughter please dont take away their grand mother who loves them soooo much..... life is too short...each day is precious...please lets get back to forgiveness and some kind of sweet co --existence...my other daughter wrote a precious,,caring letter that made me cry and cry..... i would never come between you and your man....you know that...and i know he is under alot of pressure,,and i care about him very much,, he is the father of my darling grand kids..and done so much for me and my children....i know i can never repay him for all he has done...i just hope he knows that i love him too.
please my first born...know that not a day goes by that i dont think of the wonderful..strong..person you have become,,and how very proud of you i am....you have the chance to be the better mother to your 3 children...without the influence of a dangerous cult plaguing your every move..and iknow my grand children will grow strong,, happy and well adjusted because of you and their father/.... again please find it in your heart to forgive me...i need you in my life to make it complete for this journey would not be complete without you in it .......
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thank you all for your loving concern....and esp YOU KNOW WHO....YES YOU WERE THERE THRU THE DARKEST OF TIMES....and you were a great friend to my daughter...and still are to this day.....I am trying my best to cope and be patient...its so hard to go back and relive all of that ,,just to know I have escaped out of a vicious cult and away from a controlling monster...is quite an accomplishment...but the scars probably will never leave me or my kids..
One day at a time is all Ive got now and I hope to keep on fighting,,again thanks for all your loving concern.....