FMF, your OP is very confusing, which is not too surprising considering the mental ordeal you have been through and the process you are now undertaking after waking up to TTATT and making a life outside of and after being in a highly authoritarian, manipulative and destructive mind-control cult.
Do you know that, although we owe a great deal of debt to the pioneering work of Freud, no one in the mental health fields today practice his methods of psychoanalysis.
Also, what he meant by the term "ego" is very different from its use in common parlance today.
We use words to label and thereby (hopefully) understand things both concrete and abstract. You are using terms (ego, soul, etc.) that are not particularly clearly defined to try and understand concepts that are fuzzy at best. Don't let the jargon further confuse your thinking.
Really, what we all need to do after realizing that we were in a manipulative cult and coming to understand what was done to us is this: figure out who we really are. Get to know, understand and love our real, authentic self.
This is probably a lot harder for someone raised in this religion because that self was always supressed.
Get to know who you are. This includes who you have been in the past, who you are at this moment in time and who you want to be in the future.
Also, don't confuse WHO YOU ARE with WHAT YOU DO. That is a common mistake made by most people.
You have your work cut out for you. We all do (or did). It takes time, thoughtful introspection and an openness to confront a lot of things about ourselves that aren't always that pretty.
Hang in there. It get's better!
Oubliette