i relate to every single one of you, i noticed that the more hours you did the more attention you got, if u got studies you got attention,if u placed alot of magazines you got attention, if you were related to an elder,CO.DO,someone at bethel. a pioneer, you got attention.
if you were a sole parent or a poor person, or had something wrong with you, you were ignored, and as far as service in the western world well it was like going around the walls of jerhico, big time, and it got to the stage where I was soooo sick of not at homes, telephone witnessing i loved that but everyone else hated it to it was never done, bunches of excuses were made.
and yes the lack of love that is soo evident, i know maybe 2 witnesses now that are still in who were very loving to me. but the rest bleh, out for themselves and that is all.
one is a farmer filthy rich wouldnt help a dying dog on the road makes me sick.
and yes the hypocrisy, never mind about what is good for the goose is good for the gander,it doesnt happen.
to be honest i felt like feild service with endless not at homes was like a waste of gas a waste of my time and a waste of jehovahs time... simple as that. and not many people wanted to listen they are sick of us knocking on the door and to be perfectly frank I used to force myself to go out. i got so sick of it.
and yes that peodophile thing is dispicable, imagine what jehovah must be thinking and saying. doesnt bare thinking abt.
and there will be alot of millstones when hes ready to use them all, a big clean out or judgement day is coming, and the WT needs to look and see if it itself is not part of babylon the great. food for thought.
love to all
nelly