About 3 years ago I found out about how the society was involved in the UN. That started me to wake up. I was very very angry. Told my wife and family about it and was very surprised that they didn't feel the same way I was feeling. Then I started quickly figuring out that they really don't want to know these things but are happy with the status of their religion and that's that for them. Then I found this forum and jwfacts and with in a year I thought I was totally awake. I was having a real hard time processing it all. I felt all alone. Then the ARC happened and at that point I no longer thought JW's were God's organization. Then about a year later I thought for about 2 weeks maybe, just maybe JW's have the truth and God is allowing these things to happen. But then I kept waking up more and more and found out they even had changed many key verses in the Bible to make their religion work for them, then I knew 100% that this isn't the truth.
And actually I have been pretty happy and content since. It freed me really. Now when my wife and I go to the hall cause she's totally in and doesn't know I'm mentally out, it doesn't even bother me. In fact I look for the BS in each meeting and feel proud to be able to catch it all.