Becoming an eyeservice JW or inactive JW can bring considerable relief and also allow more time for family and self.
Continue showing great love to your immediate family as you certainly desire to do from your heart.
And, please, do not become another Michael Wayne Moore of Tullahoma Alabama USA.
If negative emotions become overwhelming, there is no shame in voluntarily checking into a professional therapeutic clinic for help and hiatus.
The rough spots of breaking free from JW captivity are a normal phase of the freedom process which lightens over time.
Another helpful course can be making a point to do more recreational things that your spouse and children really enjoy... if they get more of what they enjoy by your going POMO, it can lean toward a more positive experience for the family.