My father at least instilled in me spiritual values which were a good foundation for the truth.
"spiritual values"?
Nikitaeve, can you think of anything more evil and vile than the mass murder of of men, woman and children? Can you?
Please explain to me how warmly embracing the belief that billions will be murdered so that you may covet their land and live happily ever after, is not blatantly supporting what you truly know is the height of evil? What kind of "good foundation" and "spiritual values" is attracted to such dark and repugnant things?
Do you honestly feel that the true Source of such a wondrous expression of life and universe can really be reduced down to a tribal god of war and destruction? Or, do you find in your heart that the truth must be far more loving and beautiful, rather than dark and dangerous?
I suggest you do some very deep heart-felt pondering and soul searching; and if you find you are genuinely attracted to the smell of blood, then be the very best Jehovah's Witness you can be. Perhaps, in the end, your deity will allow you to kill a few of us yourself. If not, if you find instead a natural desire to be kind and peaceful, then I assure you there are other avenues to explore, and far more beautiful understandings of the Divine.
Get of the fence. Find your way and be true to it. Good luck.
j