i'm sorry if you have heard this before, but i must vent and here is the best place..i have no other place ...i'm really angry.
i have more than 40 years of life experience on this planet.
i have been through a lot in life..i have lived in number of countries , visited many others.
Titanic,
I'm relatively new here two and I had many frustrations - still do.
But I found this place to be a great place of healing.
Also, you can be annonymous here if you want.
I pioneered for 9 years and my life goal was to be a CO. I feel the pain with you.
i was lead to beleive that cleanlinness was next to godliness,that jehovah is a clean god, .
as we as a family sat down behind ( being the operative word ) a couple of elderly sisters ,arriving late we took the only seats available,even then we caused disruption as we even i were fighting over the seats as to where one would sit ,sure enough i allways seemed to end up in the firing line of these elderly fat arsed sisters,whom allways ended up farting in your face,the smell was so strong that you could actualy taste the stench it in the air 10 minutes later,i allways felt sick ,my children grinning .
how did you cope yourself
HOLY COW!!!
hahahahaha - Marvin - you are hillarious!!
many of us pioneered.
some here pioneered as "vacation", "temporary", "auxillary", "regular" or even "special" roles.
nearly everyone was expected to pioneer, if you were to stay in the good graces of the congregation.
Hey Brummie and Lisa,
Nice to see you on this thread :-)
Anyway, I pioneered for 9 years.
Like Brummie, I did enjoy it. Me and my wife helped six people come into the truth.
The Negatives of it was that, even with this record, me and my wife STILL got hammered by elders and other pioneers for being "Phantom Pioneers."
It bothered me because we were very sincere and hard working, but because we didn't always meet the status quo of meeting at 9 every morning. We probably met about 2 mornings a week and the rest were afternoons and studies in the evening.
However, we were much more successful than any other pioneer in the cong - but we were still Phantom Pioneers in their eyes.
The Positives is that to this day, is that I've learned to be tremendously productive. Maybe that's not totally good, because only recently I just learned how to smell the roses. But a pioneers schedule was so tight that I learned to make good use of time.
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thanks for the advice guys...edited by - confuzcious on 31 january 2003 11:51:20.
Wild,
Yes. It was almost one year to the date. Hmmm.
I guess the thing that is confusing for me is that during that past year, there were some really good times. However, there was a patch of about 2 months where her personality totally changed.
We discussed it and we narrowed it down to some medication she was taking (hormonal). Actually, interestingly enough, she took the hormones (perscribed by doctor) to get her period going again since she was on the pill for 10 years.
During that stretch we were trying to have a baby. But ever time we would drink with friends, she would go into her tirade about me being a cheater.
That didn't happen before that 2 month window. I mean, don't get me wrong, I took my lumps with her before that, but the problems were REALLY bad then.
We talked it over, and we decided that the medication was the problem. She got off of it and then for about another 2 months, things were really fine and dandy.
But then she up and left after I started doing my research on the Internet etc.
So yeah, I could see your point. But it still confuses me because when she left, things - I though - was on the up swing.
Sorry for your husband cheating on you. Your pain must be great. Thanks for your post.
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thanks for the advice guys...edited by - confuzcious on 31 january 2003 11:51:20.
But yes, 6, I do live life on the quick, lol.
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thanks for the advice guys...edited by - confuzcious on 31 january 2003 11:51:20.
9 of 6,
This is not a joke, but sorry if I don't believe in the mantra that you have to have a mourning period or you need time alone.
If my wife leaves me for someone and won't return my calls or doesn't want to work it out, there's no badge of honor to be sad - when they aren't sad themselves.
What's my other choice?
Sit around and be miserable to prove I love her?
If someone else is willing to be kind to me and I'm kind to them and it's romantic, then I think it's a good thing.
You might need this one day, but the quickest way to get over a lost love is to find someone else to love.
My wife isn't coming back, so excuse me if I decide to enter a new relationship.
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thanks for the advice guys...edited by - confuzcious on 31 january 2003 11:51:20.
Brum,
Where is that poem at???
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thanks for the advice guys...edited by - confuzcious on 31 january 2003 11:51:20.
Thanks Brummie,
I think to me is more like, "hey, we all make mistakes but we can get over it."
Brum, I can't tell you how aweful it was for me when I first got removed as a pioneer. It was really hard to get over that.
I think that's why my conscience leans more towards the "forgiving" side now a days.
I appreciate you being there.
Counsel has been strong, but good.
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thanks for the advice guys...edited by - confuzcious on 31 january 2003 11:51:20.
Hey Richard,
Thanks also for your post.
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thanks for the advice guys...edited by - confuzcious on 31 january 2003 11:51:20.
Thanks Lisa.
I've learned so much from these posts and appreciate your kind words.
I feel like I'm just growing up so to speak. For the longest time I've lived my life based upon others.
I feel free now. But free towards Christ.
I've made my mistakes - fine. I'm ready to move on.
Thank you so much Lisa. I wish I could tell you how much ((((((hug))))))) means to me.
Edited by - confuzcious on 2 February 2003 21:40:22
