I agree with you what you’re saying but I am perplexed still because all these years they have left me alone
Min .....
I can tell you, you probably are not shunned but rather "softly marked". As time goes on and people come, go and move, the "soft" becomes softer since less people even know you. There are many, many like you. They basically leave you alone, view you as a lost cause, but not "evil" in their view, just someone who has drifted away with little if any hope of returning.
I wouldn't take it too seriously. The elders, burned out in many congregations, have more important things to do to keep the CO happy when he visits. At this point, you are likely in their mind wasted time with nothing to report in a positive way to the CO.