as some of you may know, jeff aka gopher and myself have been living together since last summer.
well he popped the question to me this past wednesday night and i said "yes!".
what i think i need now is a lot of support from our friends in this forum.
congrats! now you two DO know that if you get 'handfasted' (ie: engaged) on Beltaine(which was Wednesday night) it will last two lifetimes right?--so as long as you errrrr.....'renew' your vows on that date(April30th/May1st)every year you will be together for eternity!
Lots of Love!
Ravyn
worst dream i had (apart from armageddon ones) was when i stood up walked away from the sofa and when i looked back i could still see me sleeping on the sofa, that was shooooo weird.
so then i go up to me and grab me by the arm to wake me up, i could feel my arm as a seperate being....i woke up in a real sweat, totally freaked out.
whats your worst freakyish dream?.
I had a series of three dreams all connected the second year I left JWs that still disturb me.
In the first one I am at some kind of 'dig site' in a red desert-looking place and the archaeologist shows me a curved block from the center top of an arched gate with the word 'roathdvoris' carved in it by an angled stylus or wedged chisel in lower case english letters. In my dream I knew what it meant. I turned to my husband behind me and excitedly said "I KNOW that word!!" But when I woke up I didn't know it anymore. I have searched every major language/linguistic group and cannot find this word. I got the feeling it was a compound of 'roathd' and 'voris' and may even be a combination of more than one language.
A second dream about 3 months later, I had an argument with my then room-mate about JWs(he was not one and in the dream he was sticking up for them.) So I left and started driving(which I do not do in waking life) on a familliar highway and taking in the scenery, and I get to one intersection and glance to my right and see an old abandonned grammar school with "YAHWEH" over the door-(like the words "GIRLS" and "BOYS" carved over separate doors like in my Mother's time,) in which the letters rearranged while I looked at them and spelled "YOU KNEW". I continued to drive passed the school and could see a large intersection in the distance where I could turn around and go back to our house--which I decided to do at that point. But I experienced a certain liberation and made a decision to 'go back' home but with a different attitude. I was still against JWs, but I figured he just did not really know what he was talking about.The dream was totally anachronisitic in that the room mate situation happened in waking life after I left JWs, he never would have argued with me about them, and the road I was driving on happened to be a place I lived years and years earlier before I ever thought about leaving JWs or meeting my room mate. And the house we lived in was something that was totally new and unfamilliar except in the dream.
The third dream was in a college bookstore about to close for the Summer where I lost a book called 'The Road To Freedom' --I had it in my hand but I laid it down on a stool just as my husband went to sit down and it disappeared. And some Japanese lady offered to write out a check to order me a new one but I refused and said that my husband and I would find it. And on the order form I noticed that the title of the book was spelled wrong--it said 'The Road To Frredom' and I thought 'uh oh typo!' and at that moment it hit me that the word from the first dream might be spelled wrong.....(I realized this while dreaming the last dream, so it made all three dreams fit together somehow.)
Ravyn
most of us were still floundering as we faded away, were disassociated or disfellowshipped.
we were no doubt quite unhappy, unsettled, and felt like we "belonged nowhere".. when i first got out, i was so hurt to the core to realize that the "truth" was a lie, and i was so disillusioned about myself and my belief structure, that i couldn't even take my bible and open it and read without falling apart in tears.
gradually, as i struggled to heal myself, and learned to love and trust myself and others, i began thinking again about where i was in life, and what i really wanted to get out of this life, and what the future might hold.
excellent post BTW.
I changed so deeply and profoundly that I have actually considered the possibility of a 'walk-in' in my case!
I had a NDE(Near Death Experience) as I was leaving JWs. My whole world changed. My whole person changed.
You expressed how I have felt also. So much changed with me that I don't think I could catalog it without writing a book. (so please if anyone is really interested--ask me specifics.)
in a nutshell, I went from dying to living.
Ravyn
as you know the bible is a translation from greek and hebrew.
what would be the biggest errors in the bible?
and how about the new world translation bible, what errors did they make?.
OMG! Neverthere! no coffee.....here have some of mine...... (_)D
**said the witch to soon-to-be poisoned...**
muahahahahahahaahahaaaaaa!
Ravyn (trying to be funny)
are there any non-christian theists on this board?
i ask because it seems that there are two polarities for the members here: either some form of evangelicalized christian or atheist.
but, has anyone managed to go a different route?
I am a New Age Deist Witch. Non-wiccan.
Deist because I do not believe in a personal god, but I do believe in a First Cause with other higher life forms that humans have called gods who can communicate with us. Which is where the New Age part fits in. Channeling etc. And I am a witch since I do practice magick, usually of the quantum, chaotic type--which to me is not so supernatural as much as it is just yet to be identified by modern science--which takes me back to the Deism.
Ravyn
PS : Sirona---New Age is not a dirty word! But I agree I do not see Wicca as New Age Mysticism either---I think of Mysticism as more of Shamanism.
as you know the bible is a translation from greek and hebrew.
what would be the biggest errors in the bible?
and how about the new world translation bible, what errors did they make?.
Genesis chapter one and Genesis chapter two do not agree, and are in fact two different myths...
seems like if it can't even work in the first two chapters-it isn't worth my time to read any more of it.
Ravyn
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okay, we had the "who's the most gorgeous woman in the world" post, so what about the male species??
hmmmmmm.......without a doubt, i'd have to vote for elvis when he was young...........man he was good looking!!
mine
Ravyn
i just saw my doc today b/c i have had overwhelming fatigue and shortness of breath this week.
she thinks i either have congestive heart failure,or a blood clot has formed after my recent surgery, or both.
while i was there the office ast.
Dear wednesday,
I was Dxd w/ CHF years ago and put on Lanoxicaps and Cozaar among other things. I was on the meds for about a year and they took me off and have had no further problems. The medication for CHF today is very good and reliable. Good Luck.
Ravyn
my husband went into the hospital tuesday night with heart arrythmia.
he was given a shock treatment which lowered the heart rate considerably.
he had catherization done today which showed no arterial blockage.
good thoughts and best wishes going out to the Universe on your behalf.
pulse oxygen therapy at night helped a friend of ours who has the same problem.
Ravyn
pagan as in witchcraft, deism, atheism..... because this is where i want to live.
after reading the thread on rapture and talking to 'friend' last night---omg!
this guy actually thought the earthquake in chattanooga a couple of nights ago was the rapture!
I mean 'pagan' as in non-xtian/islam/jewish/buddhist/hindu. pagan as in witchcraft, deism, atheism....
because this is where I want to live.
after reading the thread on rapture and talking to 'friend' last night---OMG! this guy actually thought the earthquake in Chattanooga a couple of nights ago was the RAPTURE! he said he said his prayers and lay in bed waiting for it!---I am so absolutely SICK SICK SICK of this crap that I can't stand it anymore.
I am totally serious--where can I find figures on the population and religion? or better yet, population and spiritual beliefs?
I am dying in this hostile environment and it is seriously depressing me. I feel trapped and panicky.
Ravyn
