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  Crownhill Cong, Plymouth

  by moley in

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  drove by my old kingdom hell yesterday to find it is now a taxi office.

  anyone know where they have moved to..

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  Drove by my old kingdom hell yesterday to find it is now a taxi office. Anyone know where they have moved to.
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  Guilt

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  does anyone ever suffer from the teachings of the wbts still.

  altough i have been out for over 12 yrs they still sometimes manage to rear their ugly head.

  sometimes a news story will make you think sign of the times, and then all those old feelings come flooding back.

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  I dont dwell on them and know that its all a load crap. The mind and especially mine can play tricks on you. Being bi-polar doesnt help.
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  Guilt

  by moley in

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  does anyone ever suffer from the teachings of the wbts still.

  altough i have been out for over 12 yrs they still sometimes manage to rear their ugly head.

  sometimes a news story will make you think sign of the times, and then all those old feelings come flooding back.

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  You might need a bit of professional counselling.

  Been there done that. I think i have put my point across wrong, what i am tryin to say is that you are so ingrained, (im my case from birth) that its hard to shake of the shackles. I dont sit in a dark room quivering, i live and enjoy my life how i want to and enjoy the freedom. Its just that in dark times they can resurface.
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  Guilt

  by moley in

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  does anyone ever suffer from the teachings of the wbts still.

  altough i have been out for over 12 yrs they still sometimes manage to rear their ugly head.

  sometimes a news story will make you think sign of the times, and then all those old feelings come flooding back.

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  Does anyone ever suffer from the teachings of the WBTS still. Altough i have been out for over 12 yrs they still sometimes manage to rear their ugly head. Sometimes a news story will make you think sign of the times, and then all those old feelings come flooding back. Altough i just tend to put them to the back of my mind and go and do something incredibly unscriptual lol. But unfortunately its always there, I hate this org with all my being.
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  Are the GB Mental

  by moley in

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  just a thought, do the gb actually beleive they are gods chosen reps and truly beleive this crap or are they just in it for the power and the authority.

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  Just a thought, do the Gb actually beleive they are gods chosen reps and truly beleive this crap or are they just in it for the power and the authority
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  plymouth dc 2013

  by moley in

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  has anyone attended the plymouth convention.

  was their any new drivel announced..

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  Has anyone attended the Plymouth convention. Was their any new drivel announced.
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  Being a jw almost killed

  by moley in

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  this is the first time i've commented on this site, but i do enjoy to come here just to help clarify myself in times of need, ie when those wretched teachings resurface.

  a bit about myself.. i was born in 1970 into the wonderful happy organisation (lol) and had a unremarkable childhood or so i thought (apart from being abused by an ms), all i can remember is being terrified of dying at armageddon.

  attending 5 meetings a week and being used to preach as people wont shout at a child, studying the literature, not being able to watch popular tv shows, no xmas, birthdays the usual shit.. fast forward to age 16 and i fell in love with a worldly girl (the horror) and got her pregnant, my parents were devasted talking all the time how people in the borg would view them, nothing about what i was going thru, 16 and becoming a father, quite a big thing to me.

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  thank you all for your kind words
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  Vocalization about being a JW v. being an XJW

  by sweetface2233 in

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  i know that a lot of jws are very proud of being jws, but ever since i can remember i would be very quiet about it.

  i wouldn't announce it at school or work.

  i would shy away from the subject.

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  I remember playing football (soccer to my fellow americans) in the park with a group of brothers, (we were allowed to do that back then) and some worldly (some who went to my school) kids asked if they could join, only for the elder to start explaining to these kids why they couldnt join in and the reasons why we keep seperate from the world. Very bemused 11 yr olds. I wanted the ground to swallow me, and got it in the neck at school the nxt day.
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  Does being a JW make you narcissistic

  by wyorobert in

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  i am one of the few people on earth who never had a jehovah's witness knock on my door.

  my wife was the first witness i ever met.

  i did notice certain personality traits after being around some of the people who left the religion.

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  I remember unbeleiving family members say that when i was in the borg i was extremely arrogrant and have become a better person since i left.
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  Being a jw almost killed

  by moley in

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  2. experiences

  this is the first time i've commented on this site, but i do enjoy to come here just to help clarify myself in times of need, ie when those wretched teachings resurface.

  a bit about myself.. i was born in 1970 into the wonderful happy organisation (lol) and had a unremarkable childhood or so i thought (apart from being abused by an ms), all i can remember is being terrified of dying at armageddon.

  attending 5 meetings a week and being used to preach as people wont shout at a child, studying the literature, not being able to watch popular tv shows, no xmas, birthdays the usual shit.. fast forward to age 16 and i fell in love with a worldly girl (the horror) and got her pregnant, my parents were devasted talking all the time how people in the borg would view them, nothing about what i was going thru, 16 and becoming a father, quite a big thing to me.

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  moley

  This is the first time i've commented on this site, but i do enjoy to come here just to help clarify myself in times of need, ie when those wretched teachings resurface. A bit about myself.
  I was born in 1970 into the wonderful happy organisation (lol) and had a unremarkable childhood or so i thought (apart from being abused by an MS), all i can remember is being terrified of dying at armageddon. Attending 5 meetings a week and being used to preach as people wont shout at a child, studying the literature, not being able to watch popular tv shows, no xmas, birthdays the usual shit.
  Fast forward to age 16 and i fell in love with a worldly girl (the horror) and got her pregnant, my parents were devasted talking all the time how people in the borg would view them, nothing about what i was going thru, 16 and becoming a father, quite a big thing to me. To cut a long story shut i was disaccociated as i was not baptised at the time and the baby never happened (miscarriage) and the relationship ended much to my parents delight on both issues (pretty heartless) but i was free and led the life most normal teenagers do. Fast forward to age 21, I was becoming increassingly disorganised and depressed and one day i picked up a watchtower (my parents were good at leaving them around the place), the article i read was "Return to me and i will return to you", reading of the loving provision within the borg and i was hooked. But i knew something was wrong. Bible study with mental elder who loved to quote daniels prophecies, baptised, engaged, married, the perfect jw couple, how the congregation rejoiced and those in the heavens.
  But something was wrong. I would go for long walks on my own and cry for hours, once again the small child terrified of displeasing god. When ever i tried to talk to the loving shepards all they said was praymore, do more service, attend all meetings blah blah. My wife was a lovely person (we even had oral sex, Gasp) but something was missing.
  At the age of 28 i decided i wanted a carrer and decided to train as a nurse and would have to go to uni, um not a place for a good jw. It was while at uni that my whole world collapsed, had a breakdown and ended up in a psychiatric hospital and diagnosed as bi-polar (things start to add up for me). The loving shepard visited me once, their advice, pray, preach, go to meetings, you cant trust what the docs say as their views are worldly. I used to hear voices only to be told that it was the demons attacking, just what i needed to hear. Released from hospital and treated like leper by the loving congregation, tried to kill myself-judicial comitee. As time went on i stopped going to meetings met someone, had an affair and got Df'ed and people i had known my whole life shunned me even some crossing the road when they saw me, this still happens.
  Suprisingly my parents still talked to me till i ended up in hospital again (couple more suicide attempts) and my dad councilled me, pray etc. The docs suggested i moved in with my parents as i was a danger to myself, which they reluctantly agreed to after much prayer. About three weeks later my dad came home and said "after speaking to the elders WE feel that you cannot stay here as this is a family that follows god and your mental problems are an effect of not following gods word and also acussed me of attention seeking. My dad drove me into Plymouth (as they lived in a small village) with my belongings and dropped me off in the street and drove off. That was over ten years ago, and havent had any contact since.
  Needless to say hospital beckoned once more, when i left hospital again i was living in a homeless shelter, but that wasnt the problem it was the fact that i had been so utterly and completely brainwashed i used to have nightmares of the big A, felt so alone without the congregation and even contemplated going back. While i was at the shelter i met a christian group who help the homeless and they were great, some were so skilled in the bible that i soon began to realise what an evil organisation the WBTS were.
  Although now i profess to having no religion i cant thank them enough. After another visit to hospital these truer christians rallied round and not once did they try to push their teachings on me and managed to find me a place in sheltered housing where i began to rebuild my life.
  On a trip to the pub i met a lovely girl, who is now my wife and she was a tremendous help, i've always been open about my life and this sometimes scares people off but bettter to be upfront then peddaling lies. With her support i applied to uni to do a marine biology course which i had wanted to do for years and have now just completed it and i start a new job in 2 weeks as a trainee manager in a pub. I now have real friends, those that wont go if we dont agree and i am HAPPY something i never felt in the borg.
  Im terribly sorry for my ramblings but have needed to do this just to get it out. I just want people to know that there is life after the jw cult and it is difficult but the end reward is worth it. Im FREE and im Happy.