Leave it to me to just about have a great post ready to submit: gone.
Drat!
Anyways, Megotan ... you have come to the right place. There's many supportive former JWs here who are not put off by your sexuality, but they will be concerned about how you are being treated.
I am saddened to read of your predicament. How terrible! I have been in that situation; not the same as yours, but leaving the WTBTS because of one's coming to terms with their sexuality and NOT wanting to live a lie. Oh I remember those terrible nights, praying and praying for this 'thing' to be taken away from me. Immersing myself in pioneer activities; extra assemblies; special talks; fellowship with other JWs ... but it all came to naught.
When I arrived at this site just a little over 10 years ago, I was met with kindness and came to know many fine people as a result. It was welcoming and despite the few hiccups one encounters, it's a good place to be. As you can see, there's several pages already extending their open arms and kindnesses. Some very nice people here ... and I recognize a few names too. I am so pleased.
Nearly 30 years ago, I had to come to terms with my sexuality and it drove me to despair. In those days, there was no internet and I had no way of finding out where former JWs were, let alone gay ones were. Fast forward the clocks and here we are: this forum and countless other support forums on-line.
I wish you well although I am sure you are quite upset and saddened to be confronted with such a predicament. I feel for ya fellah.
Hang tight and steady the course. What we lose with our biological family and former friends, we will gain with a new chosen family and friends who like you no matter what.
Simon who is the admin on here, was welcoming to me from the get go here, so I am confident you will be fine here. In fact, I know it.
Best wishes and I hope you can get through this emotional upheaval that you've been given.
Stay strong - reach out - we're all here for ya bud.
Cheers! I've been in your shoes Magotan.