I think we all have experianced what you are going through. Don't worry, something will strike a chord within you and you will know it when it happens and you will either feel comfortable to pray or not to pray. I have found that I feel most connected to god is when I am in a truely beautiful place outside. When I am there outside it doesn't matter what gods name is because I can feel that connection. I think that all humankind is connected together to god and that not being connected is an illusion that we buy into, and as long as we live and breathe we remain connected. I have gone back to my Native American roots as far as worship is concerned and I do believe in the creator of all things seen and unseen. Maybe you need to do some inward search and see what is in there. Throw away the stuff that causes pain and negativity and get down to the REAL you. Ask god to help you feel connected...in time it will be apparent to you what is best for YOU and not what others think is right for you.
Healing Hugs!
aUnTiE M