I'm not really sure. I think the whole beard thing is what made me question things a lot. I mean, the publications showed Jesus with a beard, but his dad wouldn't let us measley earthings have beards? That's not right. Another thing that really didn't help was when I approached an elder about the abuse I suffered at the hands of my mother, and he told me how much of a pillar my mother was in the congregation. Pillar my ass.
When I quit going to meetings, I pretty much shoved everything into a closet in my brain and left it there. However, back in 2001 I stumbled across a link to Freeminds from another site, and I sat there reading for three days, deprogramming myself. I wish I knew who posted that link on the message board I was on, because I'd love to thank them.