I can certainly relate to how you feel, dsgal. I grew up in a town with 2 KH's: one English, one French. They never associated with each other. Also, the cliques in the English hall, ( mine), were unbelievable. At one point my sister and I were the only ones not invited to a certain youth gathering. My sister made a point to mention it to the Elders. The next party they had she was invited, and I wasn't. The really amazing thing is that when I asked my sister why I wasn't invited again, it was the first she had given any thought to it. (And it was nothing to do with me being bad association... that came about 5 years later, due in large part to their making me realize their love was so conditional........ lol)
That is one of the biggest problems with the JW's, they have NO idea of what LOVE really is. How hard is it to love people that feel exactly the same as you... NOT hard at all.
Fact is, that no matter how many people reply to this, there are many who know EXACTLY what you are talking about. Try not to let it get you down. You have to understand that the JW's DO NOT really understand what they are doing. They basically feel that they are the chosen people, simply by being a JW. Whether they follow Jesus' example, like you said, probably almost never crosses their mind.
You have to look at them as having the mentality of a person who gets the letter from Ed McMahon, and believes that they already are going to receive the $10,000,000 automatically, ignoring the rules, odds and fine print.
I TRULY believe that 95% of JW's are very nice people, just extremely misguided. Hey, it's like this: the entire JW org. is like a coach that finds some people that really love basketball, and immediately says yes we can win a championship, and blindly follows that path, never being able to realize that they should have some KNOWLEDGE of the game first. They never DO learn the game but spend the rest of their effort believing that they are winning. It's fun until you realize it's a lie. Some, unfortunately, never do. I think you have realized that.
I hope that analogy makes sense to you..... it certainly does to me... lol
Feel free to e-mail me if you found anything I said helpful.. I am fairly new to this site myself, but I can honestly say that what I say and virtually all others say is pure and loving. May this help you in your tough times.... X0X0X0X0X0X0X0 Brad