They know the religion I am in is a cult. They want me out. I don't know if I ever have the strength for that to happen. I have basically left our good times in the past, and appreciated what they have done for me. I don't think we will ever be the same again.
Thoughtless
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A Great Party Last Night.
by Thoughtless inlast night i went to a party with a (worldly) gal yesterday, twas great, but i feel like we are losing intimacy.
i haven't told her about my religion because i am afraid she may judge me or something.
i have a very complicated past and such, and the borg complicates it further.
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A Cry for Help
by Thoughtless ini have been lurking here for months now, and i just decided to post here and actually interact with this community.
i have a very specific/unordinary life, so i will not divulge too much information to protect my privacy.
i am a baptized publisher who is under the age of 25 who attends college, and i do have responsiblities within the congregation.
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This is true. If my brother EVER gets DF'd or DA'd, I will let him know that I will always support him, and such, although he may have not reciprocated that with me. My biggest flaw and my greatest trait is loyalty.
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A Great Party Last Night.
by Thoughtless inlast night i went to a party with a (worldly) gal yesterday, twas great, but i feel like we are losing intimacy.
i haven't told her about my religion because i am afraid she may judge me or something.
i have a very complicated past and such, and the borg complicates it further.
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Yeah,
I have a lot of worldy friends and not a lot of JW friends. The ratio is like 25:1 to Witness friends. I don't know. I had to cut off two people who were really nice to me, supported me when my JW family didn't, just because they weren't JW's though. It was the worst mistake of my life.
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A Great Party Last Night.
by Thoughtless inlast night i went to a party with a (worldly) gal yesterday, twas great, but i feel like we are losing intimacy.
i haven't told her about my religion because i am afraid she may judge me or something.
i have a very complicated past and such, and the borg complicates it further.
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So anyway,
Last night I went to a party with a (worldly) gal yesterday, twas great, but I feel like we are losing intimacy. I haven't told her about my religion because I am afraid she may judge me or something. I have a very complicated past and such, and the Borg complicates it further. I friendzoned myself from her so I can still stay active in the congregation and maintain the facade until I fade and leave (EST: 2015). I have thrown away a lot of relationships, either platonic or romantic, due to this religion. I am not interested into anyone within the congregation because they are sheeple, but I am still participating in the Theocratic circlejerk. Uggh. I plan just to tell her everything and flee, leave it be.
BUT ANYWAY, ON A LIGHTER NOTE.
It was drinking at the party and such, well, they were all of age. But anyway, as JW's like to claim to be the most honest people on Earth and how you could not see such honesty at a worldly party, it was a 20 dollar bill left on the kitchen table when we all decided to buy pizza (we all had enough money to buy the pizza, yet noone claimed or stole the twenty dollars). It never left despite the 20 plus people that were there and it furthers my hope in humanity. I never seen worldly people or even DF'd people as bad, I just feel like they found their own path or got lost on it. I wish that the religion could change the view of both (especially the DF'd ones. I do not agree with the harshness of it, AT ALL.)
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A Cry for Help
by Thoughtless ini have been lurking here for months now, and i just decided to post here and actually interact with this community.
i have a very specific/unordinary life, so i will not divulge too much information to protect my privacy.
i am a baptized publisher who is under the age of 25 who attends college, and i do have responsiblities within the congregation.
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Flipper,
I also do have a good female friend who is worldly, and I feel that she may have some feelings for me, but I friendzoned myself to escape possible ridicule and rumors in the Kingdom Hall and family (and to maintain my responsiblities in the KH). She his totally hot as well, omg, UNF. ABible Student, I am VERY familiar with that movie and I did enjoy it. It was very surreal (although I found the elders to be a bit cold. The Elders at my hall are pretty cool honestly). But yeah, everything I have done, I have pretty much done by myself. I don't like to brag or anything, but it's true. Sneak late at nights and do homework in an uninsulated bathroom, take Honors/AP classes, extracurricular activities, etc,etc. The one thing I do not do is IMPOSE MY WILL ON OTHERS (irony level 9000). I let them learn for themselves. So, I know my brother got baptized for all the wrong reasons because he is romantically involved with a worldly girl, but I don't rat him out and let him be a child and such. I decided that I am not going to busy myself in other people's affairs no longer. I was never self righteous and I plan to stay that way (although my intelligence and introversion gives the impression otherwise). I only have ten posts a day here (which sucks, so sorry for the verbosity, sincerely).
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A Cry for Help
by Thoughtless ini have been lurking here for months now, and i just decided to post here and actually interact with this community.
i have a very specific/unordinary life, so i will not divulge too much information to protect my privacy.
i am a baptized publisher who is under the age of 25 who attends college, and i do have responsiblities within the congregation.
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Ah, soft+gentle, I am extremely familiar with archetypes within human religions, and the Bible is filled with them, down to the forbidden fruit as well as the Tower of Babel which is the etiology of language.I am more of a freethinker, that accepts the idea and concept of a God as well as Jesus, but the FDS is taking the place as Jesus as mediator, and using Ockham's razor, that is enough for me to justify their evil. I won't go on to say that I am blameless though. I mean, I have not committed any serious sins, at all, but due to my independent thinking and freethinking, I guess I am not blameless. Also, my parent (mom, dad is dead), does not pay for my college. I explained the situation to college advisors and I got free tuition and books and stuff and nabbed a grant along the way (so I had some spending money), at my local community college. You guys have shown me more love than what I have recieved from some at the Kingdom Hall. I may just fade though, I am too loyal to my family although they have treated me like utter crap, but, I want to be there if they need help.
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A Cry for Help
by Thoughtless ini have been lurking here for months now, and i just decided to post here and actually interact with this community.
i have a very specific/unordinary life, so i will not divulge too much information to protect my privacy.
i am a baptized publisher who is under the age of 25 who attends college, and i do have responsiblities within the congregation.
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Exactly what I figured when I decided to go. I was pretty good in high school as well. Honor Society (former Student Council VP, but resigned when I got baptized), as well as a lot of other things. This is killing my potential.
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A Cry for Help
by Thoughtless ini have been lurking here for months now, and i just decided to post here and actually interact with this community.
i have a very specific/unordinary life, so i will not divulge too much information to protect my privacy.
i am a baptized publisher who is under the age of 25 who attends college, and i do have responsiblities within the congregation.
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Splash, I am thinking about doing just that. But it was a lot of mess when I decided to go to college. I lost out of 60K scholarship because my mom refused to jump on boat. It took a lot of loops, but I fought for my education.
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A Cry for Help
by Thoughtless ini have been lurking here for months now, and i just decided to post here and actually interact with this community.
i have a very specific/unordinary life, so i will not divulge too much information to protect my privacy.
i am a baptized publisher who is under the age of 25 who attends college, and i do have responsiblities within the congregation.
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Simon,
For my age, I am known to be seen as precocious, but people still do not listen to me, I guess it is my withdrawn nature. But I am thinking about getting DA'd perhaps. But, you are absolutely right, my future should not be screwed because of this.
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A Cry for Help
by Thoughtless ini have been lurking here for months now, and i just decided to post here and actually interact with this community.
i have a very specific/unordinary life, so i will not divulge too much information to protect my privacy.
i am a baptized publisher who is under the age of 25 who attends college, and i do have responsiblities within the congregation.
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Backseat Devil (another person who I am familar with),
I am pretty much independent though, and like I said, I am not very close with my adoptive family. They appreciate my presence but do not appreciate/know MY ESSENCE. I don't open up to them much.