Posts by Thoughtless

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Education Double Standard

by Tech49 in

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this is the kind of thing that really burns me.. .

wtbts holds out an extreme double standard in regards to education.

most, if not all, of you know how they feel about obtaining an education past high school (in the u.s.).

I am still a JW, and I totally have my justified doubts and this was something that has always bothered me. I am going to college anyways, and I feel that I am being put on the backburner in the congregation, but whatever. I am happy to do what I am doing. When I graduated with Honors with my AAS in English in just nine months, I looked in the mirror and I felt truly proud. As some may know about me, I was screwed out of a 60K scholarship and A LOT MORE (I wasn't denied to ANY college), but my mom refused to go along with it, so I went to my local Community College and got my AAS when I was 18, and I am 19 now (just turned 19). I have come to accept the fact the reason why the WBTS don't want us to go to college is mind control, essentially. I am known to be precocious and logically, the JW doctrine does not add up ,but I am the only one who sees this, and I am way too fearful to talk about the TTATT to my family. So I hope that one day that they can see it for themselves. Until then, I will begin a slow fade. B|

-Thoughtless

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A Cry for Help

by Thoughtless in

i have been lurking here for months now, and i just decided to post here and actually interact with this community.

i have a very specific/unordinary life, so i will not divulge too much information to protect my privacy.

i am a baptized publisher who is under the age of 25 who attends college, and i do have responsiblities within the congregation.

Thoughtless

Oh, you guys are so awesome. Thanks for the advice and the much needed support. Fading to MA would be awesome.

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A Great Party Last Night.

by Thoughtless in

last night i went to a party with a (worldly) gal yesterday, twas great, but i feel like we are losing intimacy.

i haven't told her about my religion because i am afraid she may judge me or something.

i have a very complicated past and such, and the borg complicates it further.

Thoughtless

JUST LIKE MOSES IN ANIMAL FARM.

Seriously, if a lot of these witnesses read 1984 or Animal Farm, a lot may be awake.

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A Great Party Last Night.

by Thoughtless in

last night i went to a party with a (worldly) gal yesterday, twas great, but i feel like we are losing intimacy.

i haven't told her about my religion because i am afraid she may judge me or something.

i have a very complicated past and such, and the borg complicates it further.

Thoughtless

A lot of people respect me going to college and just getting it done IN HALF THE TIME. The two people that I cut off (after a trip to crisis due to my depression due to familal pressures and the religion), really really respected that I decided to go to college.

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A Great Party Last Night.

by Thoughtless in

last night i went to a party with a (worldly) gal yesterday, twas great, but i feel like we are losing intimacy.

i haven't told her about my religion because i am afraid she may judge me or something.

i have a very complicated past and such, and the borg complicates it further.

Thoughtless

They know the religion I am in is a cult. They want me out. I don't know if I ever have the strength for that to happen. I have basically left our good times in the past, and appreciated what they have done for me. I don't think we will ever be the same again.

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A Cry for Help

by Thoughtless in

i have been lurking here for months now, and i just decided to post here and actually interact with this community.

i have a very specific/unordinary life, so i will not divulge too much information to protect my privacy.

i am a baptized publisher who is under the age of 25 who attends college, and i do have responsiblities within the congregation.

Thoughtless

This is true. If my brother EVER gets DF'd or DA'd, I will let him know that I will always support him, and such, although he may have not reciprocated that with me. My biggest flaw and my greatest trait is loyalty.

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A Great Party Last Night.

by Thoughtless in

last night i went to a party with a (worldly) gal yesterday, twas great, but i feel like we are losing intimacy.

i haven't told her about my religion because i am afraid she may judge me or something.

i have a very complicated past and such, and the borg complicates it further.

Thoughtless

Yeah,

I have a lot of worldy friends and not a lot of JW friends. The ratio is like 25:1 to Witness friends. I don't know. I had to cut off two people who were really nice to me, supported me when my JW family didn't, just because they weren't JW's though. It was the worst mistake of my life.

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A Great Party Last Night.

by Thoughtless in

last night i went to a party with a (worldly) gal yesterday, twas great, but i feel like we are losing intimacy.

i haven't told her about my religion because i am afraid she may judge me or something.

i have a very complicated past and such, and the borg complicates it further.

Thoughtless

So anyway,

Last night I went to a party with a (worldly) gal yesterday, twas great, but I feel like we are losing intimacy. I haven't told her about my religion because I am afraid she may judge me or something. I have a very complicated past and such, and the Borg complicates it further. I friendzoned myself from her so I can still stay active in the congregation and maintain the facade until I fade and leave (EST: 2015). I have thrown away a lot of relationships, either platonic or romantic, due to this religion. I am not interested into anyone within the congregation because they are sheeple, but I am still participating in the Theocratic circlejerk. Uggh. I plan just to tell her everything and flee, leave it be.

BUT ANYWAY, ON A LIGHTER NOTE.

It was drinking at the party and such, well, they were all of age. But anyway, as JW's like to claim to be the most honest people on Earth and how you could not see such honesty at a worldly party, it was a 20 dollar bill left on the kitchen table when we all decided to buy pizza (we all had enough money to buy the pizza, yet noone claimed or stole the twenty dollars). It never left despite the 20 plus people that were there and it furthers my hope in humanity. I never seen worldly people or even DF'd people as bad, I just feel like they found their own path or got lost on it. I wish that the religion could change the view of both (especially the DF'd ones. I do not agree with the harshness of it, AT ALL.)

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A Cry for Help

by Thoughtless in

i have been lurking here for months now, and i just decided to post here and actually interact with this community.

i have a very specific/unordinary life, so i will not divulge too much information to protect my privacy.

i am a baptized publisher who is under the age of 25 who attends college, and i do have responsiblities within the congregation.

Thoughtless

Flipper,

I also do have a good female friend who is worldly, and I feel that she may have some feelings for me, but I friendzoned myself to escape possible ridicule and rumors in the Kingdom Hall and family (and to maintain my responsiblities in the KH). She his totally hot as well, omg, UNF. ABible Student, I am VERY familiar with that movie and I did enjoy it. It was very surreal (although I found the elders to be a bit cold. The Elders at my hall are pretty cool honestly). But yeah, everything I have done, I have pretty much done by myself. I don't like to brag or anything, but it's true. Sneak late at nights and do homework in an uninsulated bathroom, take Honors/AP classes, extracurricular activities, etc,etc. The one thing I do not do is IMPOSE MY WILL ON OTHERS (irony level 9000). I let them learn for themselves. So, I know my brother got baptized for all the wrong reasons because he is romantically involved with a worldly girl, but I don't rat him out and let him be a child and such. I decided that I am not going to busy myself in other people's affairs no longer. I was never self righteous and I plan to stay that way (although my intelligence and introversion gives the impression otherwise). I only have ten posts a day here (which sucks, so sorry for the verbosity, sincerely).

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A Cry for Help

by Thoughtless in

i have been lurking here for months now, and i just decided to post here and actually interact with this community.

i have a very specific/unordinary life, so i will not divulge too much information to protect my privacy.

i am a baptized publisher who is under the age of 25 who attends college, and i do have responsiblities within the congregation.

Thoughtless

Ah, soft+gentle, I am extremely familiar with archetypes within human religions, and the Bible is filled with them, down to the forbidden fruit as well as the Tower of Babel which is the etiology of language.I am more of a freethinker, that accepts the idea and concept of a God as well as Jesus, but the FDS is taking the place as Jesus as mediator, and using Ockham's razor, that is enough for me to justify their evil. I won't go on to say that I am blameless though. I mean, I have not committed any serious sins, at all, but due to my independent thinking and freethinking, I guess I am not blameless. Also, my parent (mom, dad is dead), does not pay for my college. I explained the situation to college advisors and I got free tuition and books and stuff and nabbed a grant along the way (so I had some spending money), at my local community college. You guys have shown me more love than what I have recieved from some at the Kingdom Hall. I may just fade though, I am too loyal to my family although they have treated me like utter crap, but, I want to be there if they need help.