Thank you bella15 , for taking the time to give this article . I'm keeping it in a file to show my hubby. You made my day
Freethinking76
JoinedPosts by Freethinking76
-
40
Now that I am out, which bible should i read? Feeling free at last!
by Freethinking76 inso, now that i am out for good, which bible should i read?
there is no way i will read the wt one..so i still want to have a relationship with god but don't know how to choose a bible.
it is very hard to dewired yourself and ,sometimes i feel that i don't have a relationship with him.the what ifs come and go still.last night i was up all night reading and researching , can't shake off the shock still to know ttatt.
-
-
-
40
Now that I am out, which bible should i read? Feeling free at last!
by Freethinking76 inso, now that i am out for good, which bible should i read?
there is no way i will read the wt one..so i still want to have a relationship with god but don't know how to choose a bible.
it is very hard to dewired yourself and ,sometimes i feel that i don't have a relationship with him.the what ifs come and go still.last night i was up all night reading and researching , can't shake off the shock still to know ttatt.
-
-
Freethinking76
Good Qs, elder-schemelder ...there is so much info out there
-
40
Now that I am out, which bible should i read? Feeling free at last!
by Freethinking76 inso, now that i am out for good, which bible should i read?
there is no way i will read the wt one..so i still want to have a relationship with god but don't know how to choose a bible.
it is very hard to dewired yourself and ,sometimes i feel that i don't have a relationship with him.the what ifs come and go still.last night i was up all night reading and researching , can't shake off the shock still to know ttatt.
-
-
Freethinking76
Cool, thanks ,I will be searching for them
-
40
Now that I am out, which bible should i read? Feeling free at last!
by Freethinking76 inso, now that i am out for good, which bible should i read?
there is no way i will read the wt one..so i still want to have a relationship with god but don't know how to choose a bible.
it is very hard to dewired yourself and ,sometimes i feel that i don't have a relationship with him.the what ifs come and go still.last night i was up all night reading and researching , can't shake off the shock still to know ttatt.
-
-
Freethinking76
So, now that I am out for good, which bible should i read? There is no way I will read the wt one..so I still want to have a relationship with God but don't know how to choose a bible. It is very hard to dewired yourself and ,sometimes I feel that I don't have a relationship with him.the what ifs come and go still.last night I was up all night reading and researching , can't shake off the shock still to know ttatt.
-
30
First post venting
by Freethinking76 inhello ,i am a jw,been in the "truth " for about 6 years.i have to be very careful because i know the witnesses monitors sites and report to the elders ,i know cause that is what my blood sister does,she spends hours trying to find apostates in the closet.i know stuped.. so this is my situation.i have known about jw almost all my life and heard that only them have the truth,lots of my family are in it.i was the one taking too long to baptize ,i knew it was expected from me.and i always had a need to make ppl like me .so i took the dip.i started to notice that there are lots of jws that belong to little groups.i wanted friendship so bad and at the time had a need o tell ppl about my horrible childhood traumas i guess i was not over it yet,and needed some to lisent since i had drove my spouse nuts already .what happend this ppl pretend to want to be close to me so they can know all my business and then tell everyone at the hall.then you realize uhhh,they never confided their personal stuff to me.is like a game " you can tell me your stuff,but do not expect me to keep it to myself and do not think i will tell you my dirty laundry.a lot of mind games.. so i was alone ,invisible ,i still can't believe i put up with so much !
i can't wright not even half of what i when through.i feel paranoic now.so i came across a youtube video by jwstruggle and blow my mind ,now i can't stop researching,my spouse is not a jw,and is very shock too.so i decided that i want to fade,i guess it won't be so hard since the sis and brothers did not had a close relationship with me.i have kids and i suffer from pts ,anxiety attacks,panick attacks and severe depression.i moved to the next town of my hall,so i have change hall too.i have not been to my new hall,and wanted to know,will the elders in my old hall contact the elders in my new hall just to see if i am attending?..
my spouse told me " i will tell them i am not letting you go" "and "i found out that your liars!
-
-
Freethinking76
Hi gojira-101 ,saw your video with hubby and we love you!... Thanks for you courage.it made me thing a lot. We also love your cat
-
32
exJW Psychology 104--One Way to Play the Depression Card
by Billy the Ex-Bethelite ini had an interesting conversation with bobby (*some names have been changed) last weekend.
he's also a successful fader going back several years before me.
but i found we had something in common that i hadn't realized.. bobby had never been particularly happy growing up.
-
-
Freethinking76
Omg! Trouble mind , I felt the ecxact thing too .cliques,back stabbing ,competitions and the big one fakeness .there was a sister that would come to me
everytime she saw me depressed ,I would tell her my problems and then she just dissapered with promises that "we will get together soon" ..one of them
told me that she always puts a good mood face to others and tells them "oh we should get together soon and have fun" , just to get them out of her back. I
have never see so much ipocracy in my life. I learned that the sisters that are not like that, they will never tell their problems just because they have been
betrayed.there is a sister at the hall I used to go.she is an elders wife and the arrogance she walks about is unbelievable .but she is an " example" .yeah
right.
-
32
exJW Psychology 104--One Way to Play the Depression Card
by Billy the Ex-Bethelite ini had an interesting conversation with bobby (*some names have been changed) last weekend.
he's also a successful fader going back several years before me.
but i found we had something in common that i hadn't realized.. bobby had never been particularly happy growing up.
-
-
Freethinking76
Hi bugbear, I remember an elder from the hall I used to go ,everyone love his talks he had so much charisma and personality.and all of a sudden got so sick that never came back to the hall
-
21
"20,000/month being baptized into the organization"
by NeverKnew inthis is something i heard an elder say... .
is this possible?.
how many were baptized in all of 2012?.
-
-
Freethinking76
Well , sometimes these ppl do not know the truth about the truth,I remember when I study for the first time at age 15, three months after I told my
teacher I dint want to continue, because she said that jehovah will kill me if I go to college. She responded telling me that it was too late for me to quit..
,that in the bible says that unce you acquire knowledge Jah sees you as a witness, so I would be like a person with no faith at all and die along with my
beloved cat in Armageddon .how loving and tender? Well guess what she was df a year later along with her elder stepdad. When I came to the "truth" I
never knew nothing about the organization beginning ,and I was extremely ignorant to everything .everytime I would ask something the jws would say wait
on Jah.they say how many come in ,they do not say how many leave. I feel horrible because I feel responsible for a person that is now studying with one of
the jws, I don't know if to warned her or not .I tryed to get her for 3 years and she finally accepted just cause someone very close to her died and she
wants to see that person again. But she lives far from me and it was best for someone close to her to be her teacher. I wish I can turn back ,I helped .it sucks!
-
32
exJW Psychology 104--One Way to Play the Depression Card
by Billy the Ex-Bethelite ini had an interesting conversation with bobby (*some names have been changed) last weekend.
he's also a successful fader going back several years before me.
but i found we had something in common that i hadn't realized.. bobby had never been particularly happy growing up.
-
-
Freethinking76
I recently stop going to the hall,I was always so depressed,and even though that I had bipolar disorder (I think that's how you call it). Anyways, I started to receive therapy for my depression and as soon as the jws found out ,I was told to be careful ,and it was best to talk to a "spiritual sister". Well I did ..an hour later after I finish talking to her about my feelings , Another sister text me saying" I just want you to know that you are very nice and we don't thing that there is something wrong with you at all"... I did not respond..but they both decided to kind of shun me. Well I am more happy now,and have hopes of finding better friends. I am glad you are too, and your parents are amazing.plus you should make your own web with funny things about the wt,.
-
30
First post venting
by Freethinking76 inhello ,i am a jw,been in the "truth " for about 6 years.i have to be very careful because i know the witnesses monitors sites and report to the elders ,i know cause that is what my blood sister does,she spends hours trying to find apostates in the closet.i know stuped.. so this is my situation.i have known about jw almost all my life and heard that only them have the truth,lots of my family are in it.i was the one taking too long to baptize ,i knew it was expected from me.and i always had a need to make ppl like me .so i took the dip.i started to notice that there are lots of jws that belong to little groups.i wanted friendship so bad and at the time had a need o tell ppl about my horrible childhood traumas i guess i was not over it yet,and needed some to lisent since i had drove my spouse nuts already .what happend this ppl pretend to want to be close to me so they can know all my business and then tell everyone at the hall.then you realize uhhh,they never confided their personal stuff to me.is like a game " you can tell me your stuff,but do not expect me to keep it to myself and do not think i will tell you my dirty laundry.a lot of mind games.. so i was alone ,invisible ,i still can't believe i put up with so much !
i can't wright not even half of what i when through.i feel paranoic now.so i came across a youtube video by jwstruggle and blow my mind ,now i can't stop researching,my spouse is not a jw,and is very shock too.so i decided that i want to fade,i guess it won't be so hard since the sis and brothers did not had a close relationship with me.i have kids and i suffer from pts ,anxiety attacks,panick attacks and severe depression.i moved to the next town of my hall,so i have change hall too.i have not been to my new hall,and wanted to know,will the elders in my old hall contact the elders in my new hall just to see if i am attending?..
my spouse told me " i will tell them i am not letting you go" "and "i found out that your liars!
-
-
Freethinking76
Cha ching ; I disconnected my bell to my appt, and just relaxing I feel so good that I don't have to worry about expectations from them, I am going back to
school! Thanks for commenting :) ohh... I am the wife sorry for the confusion