For 20 plus years I was a serious, die hard elder. I worked hard at my elder "job" of setting a good example for family and congregation. Spent way too many hours away from my kids so I could prepare for meeting and talks. Sat in on many jc's but only agreed, reluctantly, to df one person. Because I was a contrarian during jc proceedings, always looking for the reason not to df, I was later on often not selected to be on the jc. praise jah! The endless meetings, after the meeting, really got to me. I could never do enough so I always felt a bit guilty and unfulfilled.
Fortunately I discovered ttatt and ended nearly 60 years of f.o.g. Life is good outside of the borg and at least I get to enjoy my grandchildren!
just saying!