HI there,
As you do not mention your ages, I am going to presume you are in your 20's.
There are those that can, indeed, get out of this cult and begin life anew, but I must warn you. I was married to an ex PO and he was in for 39 yrs. Too late!! in my opinion.
ALthough he doesnt believe in the doctrine, he did at one time and I believe he still has an undercurrent of fear about their destruction in Armaggedon BS. He once used to admit it, but there is a lot of animosity in our "relationship". Lots of things have happened that he lied about.
THe thing I want to impress upon you is this...even though he is an DA'd JW, he is still very much a know-it-all, pushy, insensitive lout. He consistenly puts women down in covert, subversive ways that you can't quite put an exact word to. He is a pathological liar and a serial adulterer. He constantly has his way, no matter what it costs, and he clearly believes he is better than others. I find myself disgusted by him due to his unhealthy influence on our children. I don't want my daughter growing up believeing she is a second class citizen and that her father does no wrong, just because he covers his tracks so well. I have had to accept responsibility for allowing him into my life, and hurting my children's chances at a normal life in the process. BElieve me, I have anguished over this badly, but depending on his family and him, you must know what you are getting into. If i had had the TRUTH and not some BS cover stories over and over again, I WOULD NEVER have stayed or married him. He actually knew this and actually admitted to me that he didn't tell me the truth about the JW's in order to keep me around. What a liar and user to do this to someone! I can never trust him to tell the truth and I feel I am payign for the remainder of my life, because he doesn't admit to doing ANYTHING wrong and is operating on autopilot with his disgusting ideas and socialization he had. ITs really awful and I truly woudl never suggest to ppl to think that in some way, you are still dealing with a JW, even if they are scared to face their families with the truth due to fear of shunning or other BS.