I was in the b-ORG all my life. I left because i had more questions than answers and asking questions was not encouraged. In particular, during one book study I kept reading past the scripture that was looked up and ended up reading the rest of the book. The first time I ever just read the bible unmotivated, I ended up very confused because It was totally different than what we were studying and saying.
We were at the time going through the Revelation-climax book. I read the last few chapters of revelation and was just shocked. I remember feeling this hot wave go across my body, like fear. I remember that I was thinking to myself that the watchtower teaching on this subject, the second resurrection, is WRONG!!!
I could no longer rely on a second resurrection for salvation as a matter of fact I started to question whether I could rely on the watchtower. Unless I lived up to THE perfect standard of rightousness I was lost. I knew that it was impossible to be perfect. I tried many times to be perfect but was always aware that I was a sinner. I had no hope. So I stopped carring. That is why I left. I realized that working for the love of God was pointless.
Eventually I stopped carring whether or not god existed then denied it outright.
When I saw the light, Jesus ripped my heart to pieces. I never knew Jesus in the Watchtower. I hated jesus in the watchtower. Jesus was boring. Jesus was just another reminder of how I was lost because I couldn't be perfect. I don't think I ever cracked the Greatest man that ever lived, book. I didn't want to hear about Jesus, that would make me puke.
Jesus is so amazing to me I can't even describe it. It not so much him claiming to be God that blows me away but the way he does it! Then the fact that he is God opens up a whole other world of amazement.
I hate how the watchtower systematically denies Christ. All her crimes are trivial when compared to that one. They spend so much time and energy subverting the simple truth of Christ. Oh man I can't wait FOR JUDGEMENT DAY, AHAHAHHAHAHAHHAh, I hope Judgement Day lasts a billion years. I tell you I will be holding up that trinity broshure for much of THAT day.