You never did forgive my mother for not coming to our wedding. She said she couldnt afford to make the trip. I knew if I asked you, you would have paid her way. I think it was easier this way. I did not invite my middle sister because I did not want to put her in an akward position. My sis...well she came any way...I should have known.
I am so sorry that I equated loving you and marrying you with sinning. I never told you that. What we have together should be celebrated.
My dear husband you have been so patient with me.
For the first 2 years of our marriage.. I was totaly inactive. Remember when you took me to your mom's house and we all went out on her land and chopped down a christmas tree? That was my first christmas. I really tried but I could not get into it.
One day a J W sister came to the door. I really cant explain why I felt the need to go back. I felt I had a chance to redeem myself.
You did not standin my way. You told me if it made me happy to do it but you didn't believe in it. You always said you didn't need a
group to tell you how to worship god. I never told you how lonely I felt going to the meetings without you. I would see couples together and feel sad. I did not listen to the orgs. Counsel.. I was unevenly yoked...and it was my choice.
I never told you that one of my burdens wad knowing