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  Help me Plz (teen issues)

  by Demokan in

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  i have bdd, it isn't just the meetings it's everything.

  i don't want to go but i feel guilty of not going cause he said everyone is wondering where i am, but i dont want anyone to see my face... and tomorrow they said they'll call me to make sure im going but it's so tough.

  also how do i cancel talks thx.. .

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  Yeah it's the BDD that anneB said, I really cant do anything right now and I feel pressured because I been visited and all that stuff, I got visited by the elders. I really can't be in public with all those normal looking people, im the only one that feels like an alien.

  Edit: sorry for the late reply, I havent been on here for a while.

  Fermando thanks for those helpful suggestions but I am not in school currently. Home schooling...

  chaching, elders/concerned ppl. And I don't want to disclose any identifying marks, I bet there are undercover people on here. TBH I came here vs Yahoo answers because generally people say realy rude stuff to me on there, and being ex-jws/jws? I find you guys able to relate to me and also more nice. I have history with suicide attempts and stuff just to say that, and I can't really deal with this stress of feeling like I have to push myself I can't do it right now and I need some time away. (I sound so self-centered I know, but I can shake the feeling that I'm an alien life-form. I already have a suicide plan too) and I'm not an attention seeker, people on yahoo say that.... I just want some advice.
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  Help me Plz (teen issues)

  by Demokan in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i have bdd, it isn't just the meetings it's everything.

  i don't want to go but i feel guilty of not going cause he said everyone is wondering where i am, but i dont want anyone to see my face... and tomorrow they said they'll call me to make sure im going but it's so tough.

  also how do i cancel talks thx.. .

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  Demokan

  I have BDD, it isn't just the meetings it's everything. I don't want to go but I feel guilty of not going cause he said everyone is wondering where I am, but I dont want anyone to see my face... And tomorrow they said they'll call me to make sure Im going but it's so tough.

  also how do I cancel talks thx.
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  I'm new here...

  by Demokan in

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  i'm 15, and i'm an unbaptized publisher... so i've been what you call "lurking" here for the past few weeks and i have some questions.

  i hear you guys constantly mentioning ttatt so where can i go to learn more about this (links please)?

  also i've already told my mom that i don't believe in the governing body and she is making me do even more!

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  @humbled, I'm glad everything turned out well with your daughter and she got a scholarship too! @hortensia there actually isn't really anybody I can talk to about my feelings toward the GB and the JWS because I don't actually have any "WORLDY" friends, mainly because I am not allowed to talk to any of them outside of school... I still don't even have a cellphone even though I'm going into grade 10 (so texting is out of the question) my mom worries that ill get involved with "bad association" but honestly I thank "gosh" she didnt cancel the Internet. She already canceled our cable sheesh! We haven't had cable since she got reinstated, I was 6 years old at the time, it was almost instantaneous she got reinstated and then *BAM* nothing to do. She takes the Internet out at 8:00 on most days but I have a backup cord :3. And I read that cognitive dissonance thingy on jwfacts it's pretty interesting I still need to study moar so that I can take on the elders one day jk. Last post guys I can't post anymore for 24 hours. ._. My mom actually prayed with me to open my heart and not "doubt" Jehovah at 1:00 am in the morning last night-. But seriously though its so hard to believe how humans can be so dumb.. Like if they get lied to in front of their face they will believe it more? What the heck is that.... (The alien thing in cognitive dissonance) anyways like I said this is my last allowed post for 24 hours, but I do very much enjoy reading your responses. I guess 3 things I can do to make my life easier is: 1. Go on this site. 2. Avoid FS. 3. Study nightly for my school.. Starts in September ! :D o god my sister is swearing at my mom right now... So much for getting baptized in 2 months... TTYL in 24 hours.. Are there lots of teenagers on here or just me?. Just wondering. It's kind of weird I'm confused who everyone (personality wise) because at the meetings my aunt, mom and sister act so differently, like they are extra careful like they never have broken a glass in their life. At home they act different .. And at school they act different. It's like "which one are you?!" I brought this up with my mom last night when she asked my why I was having a hard time believing in our religion, I brought that up and also the liver transplant thing. She is a hard nutt to crack. but I will defininately not speak up right now unless someone asks.. So yeah. Thank you all again! Sorry I can write as much about certain things because I'm on my iPod right now and it is hard to use the keyboard because it is lagging bad (iPods not designed for full websites like this) or else I would answer your guys questions more better...
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  I'm new here...

  by Demokan in

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  2. friends

  i'm 15, and i'm an unbaptized publisher... so i've been what you call "lurking" here for the past few weeks and i have some questions.

  i hear you guys constantly mentioning ttatt so where can i go to learn more about this (links please)?

  also i've already told my mom that i don't believe in the governing body and she is making me do even more!

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  So I just got back from the meeting, it was soooooooo~ boring. I just zoned out and daydreamed the whole time. Gosh you mums and dads out there are so smart, My mom has been in the "truth" for over 50 years and she still hasn't woken up. >.< same thing with my aunt. @ding I will definitely do that. Again thank you all! I got most of the information I need so all I gotta say is "bump" and I can close the thread right? Thanks for the warm welcome guys I will definitely stick around an post some stories - (I'm scared to be found out!) but I'll still post some like.. IDK later, but seriously I have so many though-. LOL.
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  I'm new here...

  by Demokan in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i'm 15, and i'm an unbaptized publisher... so i've been what you call "lurking" here for the past few weeks and i have some questions.

  i hear you guys constantly mentioning ttatt so where can i go to learn more about this (links please)?

  also i've already told my mom that i don't believe in the governing body and she is making me do even more!

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  For now Ill just play it cool and go along with them to the meetings, FS and blah blah blah. I honestly don't want to deal with the elders right now on top of all this other "crap" in my life. But as soon as I am of-age I will leave! Thanks for the advice everybody.

  *ps I've always wondered about the "luck" thing... Seriously the lengths people go to..
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  I'm new here...

  by Demokan in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i'm 15, and i'm an unbaptized publisher... so i've been what you call "lurking" here for the past few weeks and i have some questions.

  i hear you guys constantly mentioning ttatt so where can i go to learn more about this (links please)?

  also i've already told my mom that i don't believe in the governing body and she is making me do even more!

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  Thanks for all your help guys. I will definitely take a read on jw facts. I wouldn't be labeled as bad association probably because I always go beyond and about when it concerns my reputation with the other kids, and the adults in my congregation.. Honestly that's the truth- it actually takes a great toll on me emotionally though. I recently had to be escorted by the police to the hospital because I attempted to overdose on Tylenol pm's. I am also having lots of issues with finding my identity. But seriously though thanks everyone, You guys are really kind.
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  I'm new here...

  by Demokan in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i'm 15, and i'm an unbaptized publisher... so i've been what you call "lurking" here for the past few weeks and i have some questions.

  i hear you guys constantly mentioning ttatt so where can i go to learn more about this (links please)?

  also i've already told my mom that i don't believe in the governing body and she is making me do even more!

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  Seriously though- I need to help my sister get out before she gets baptized which she is planning to in like a few months. I must stop her!! How do I approach her in a way that she will listen.. ._.
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  I'm new here...

  by Demokan in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i'm 15, and i'm an unbaptized publisher... so i've been what you call "lurking" here for the past few weeks and i have some questions.

  i hear you guys constantly mentioning ttatt so where can i go to learn more about this (links please)?

  also i've already told my mom that i don't believe in the governing body and she is making me do even more!

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  I am going to the meeting because it is Sunday today- I don't really want to go ._. I might not respond for a while cause I have to get ready but please provide all the links you can. And book titles or something idk. Thank you.
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  I'm new here...

  by Demokan in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i'm 15, and i'm an unbaptized publisher... so i've been what you call "lurking" here for the past few weeks and i have some questions.

  i hear you guys constantly mentioning ttatt so where can i go to learn more about this (links please)?

  also i've already told my mom that i don't believe in the governing body and she is making me do even more!

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  well I just googled jw.org to download my watchtowers and what-not.. And I always saw this site : "Jehovah's-witness.net" so yeah.. I just clicked it read some stuff ... And then I kept going back, it was my sinful pleasure LOL. Sorry for my grammar and stuff I can't speak eloquently like most of you adults on here ._. Any help with forums is appreciated too I don't know how to use forums.
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  I'm new here...

  by Demokan in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i'm 15, and i'm an unbaptized publisher... so i've been what you call "lurking" here for the past few weeks and i have some questions.

  i hear you guys constantly mentioning ttatt so where can i go to learn more about this (links please)?

  also i've already told my mom that i don't believe in the governing body and she is making me do even more!

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  Demokan

  I'm 15, and I'm an unbaptized publisher... So I've been what you call "lurking" here for the past few weeks and I have some questions. I hear you guys constantly mentioning TTATT so where can I go to learn more about this (links please)? Also I've already told my mom that I don't believe in the governing body and she is making me do EVEN more! So what can I do? Also if I don't get baptized I can leave without getting shunned right? Also how do I get my parents and everyone out of the cult when their whole minds are like, engraved into it, I mentioned it to my sister a night ago and all she said was "I'm to tired to be doubting Jehovah right now" I was like SERIOUSLY! *.* ya and I'm stressed out and I act like an angel when I'm at the KH.. And even none of my friends don't know for who I really am.... So yeah suggestions would be appreciated.