I’ve been shunned for many years so her passing doesn’t really constitute a loss for me. Her and her husband made it clear many years ago they didn’t want a homo in their family. Request granted. The only thing that pains me is the assumption that this is supposed to pain me... but it doesn’t. That religion destroyed everything.
I’m not devoid of feelings. This affects me. I’ve flirted with tears today. But I refuse to give way to emotions that have no business existing given the history.
I’m confused.