When I decided to back to meetings after about a 28 year absence one thing that really struck me deeply was the feeling that, although I had changed greatly, I'd grown, developed, matured, deepened, had more scars, moved on in many areas.. but that the org had not. Neither had it's members.
In fact the entire org and it's contents seemed to have regressed. Not only had the so called deep, spiritual food been watered down to a nutrition-less transparent nothingness but It felt like I was surrounded by children obsessed by the petty. Elders had the depth and profundity of mere schoolboys, mature sisters were like squibbling infantile girls, the really old were borderline senile and demented and totally out of touch, the younger male ministerial servants had the maturity of pre-adolescent boy scouts,and acted like over privileged spoiled brats.
It was one big kindergarten.. I have never felt so out of place and out of touch with humanity as I did among them.
Suffice to say I only lasted 3 months before I was simply unable to even walk in a hall again. I quit and severed all ties completely.