HI EVERY ONE I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE THOUGHT I WAS A HIT AND RUN, BUT IM STILL AROUND. I WILL ALWAYS BE READING, EVEN IF I DONT POST. TODAY 5-3-03 IS MY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY. TO A MAN WHO IS NOT A JW. WHO LAST YEAR ROUND THIS TIME I WAS ADVISED NOT TO BE UNEQUALLY YOKED TO. IM STRIVING TO BE BAPTISED, AND HE WAS REALLY KIND OF NONCHALANT ABOUT EVERYTHING. WHAT MAKES ME MAD RIGHT NOW IS THE SMUGNESS OF THE JWS. "HOW COULD THIS MAN BE RIGHT FOR ANYONE HES NOT A JW " " IS HE THINKING OF THE SPIRITUAL NEEDS OF THE FAMILY" HES NICE TO ME HE TREATS ME GOOD. I WAS TOLD CALL NOONE GOOD BUT GOD . I CAME IN THIS RELATIONSHIP WITH THREE CHILDREN AND HE TREATS THEM NO DIFFERENT THAN HIS. ON MY LAST POST SOMEONE SAID " ONE YEAR AND YOURE UPSET" SOME SMALL HISTORY. I BEGAN STUDING WITH THE WITNESSES IN 1989. NEVER COMMITTED MYSELF TO IT. BECAUSE OF THE WAY I HAD TO MOVE AROUND. BUT I THOUGHT JUST LIKE ONE. THIS PAST YEAR I WANTED TO REALLY COMMIT MYSELF. I COULDNT BECAUSE I LIVED WITH MY NOW HUSBAND. I WAS TOLD THT ICOULD NOT PROGRESS LIVING IN SIN IN THIS WAY. EITHER LEAVE OR GET MARRIED. SO I WENT TO HIM TOLD HIM EITHER MARRY ME OR ELSE. HE DID. BUT WHEN I LOOK BACK ON THAT PERSON THAT I WAS,THE WAY THAT I WAS FEELING INSIDE THAT FOR JEHOVAH I WOULD HAVE LEFT HIM AND NEVER LOOKED BACK. ONE YEAR LATER IM SO HAPPY HE IS WONDERFUL.
ENOUGH OF THAT, I HAVENT ENDED MY STUDY YET WHEN I DO I WILL LET EVERYONE KNOW. AFTER ALL THE POSTS AND THE RESEARCH I CRIED BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH I NEVER COMMITTED I ALWAYS FELT IT WAS THE TRUTH AND ONE DAY " I WOULD MAKE THE TRUTH MY OWN " IT WILL TAKE SOME ADJUSTMENTS BUT I WILL BE FINE. ONCE AGAIN IM GLAD I FOUND THIS FORUM BEFORE I WAS BAPTISED AND YES IM GONNA END MY STUDY I HATE TO LOSE THE FRIENDSHIP OF THE PEOPLE I MET. BUT OH WELL LIFE GOES ON