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  How many out here.....

  by tazmaniac in

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  how many out here know a loved one or know of someone who suffers from depression and it is from being in the borg and never feel you are doing enough.

  my ex wife would always lapse into a few month state of depression right after a visit from the c/o and getting pounded on about f/s hours or not enough studies or not enough pioneers yadda yadda yadda.

  i know with my ex that the constant fear of armageddon and feeling inadequate was a depression trigger ready to be pulled at any instant.

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  reddk8

  Hi there. I just DA'd myself, 3 days ago. I struggled with depression for years, begging for help, getting nothing. An elder was also battling depression, and the other elders were so supportive of him. Told him what an inspiration he was, just being able to show up for a meeting. I was told that Satan was testing me, and if I were in the center of the flock, he wouldn't be able to get to me. I am not taking anything away from that elder; I'm really glad that he felt loved and supported, and got his needs met at the K. Hall. I felt so awful, because the only times I didn't feel like dying, were when I skipped some meetings! I was told that this was because Satan wouldn't bother those who are doing his will, and skipping meetings was Satan's will! ( Is that what is called a "guilt trip"?) I never thought there were others, so many at least, that were like me. Now that I think of it, I know of 4, no 5 others, not counting that elder, who suffered from depression. Are we counting kids? 'Cause if so, add 3 more that I know of, on anti-depressants. Now, I can breathe again. Life, my family, sunshine, all good. Reddk8