Hi FF
I snapped completely in 2010 while still and elder and TMS Servant and DC speaker etc etc. However it would appear that i was well into the path of depression for some years prior to that [this came to the fore during therapies]
The constant stress of being on a body of very incompetent men involved in constant bickering and powerplays coupled with my kids leaving home [empty nest syndrome] and relocation to another city delivered a knock-out "for me.
The dissonance and dichotomy of the "Trfuth" was also a strong contributing factor.
I remained in a very dark dangerous space for 30 months and attempted suicide.
The support of my wife and kids was unmatched.
I was placed under Psychiatric care and put on Venlafaxine 225mg to start with - now on 75 mg.
I am in 'remission" or am I ?? As I am still on meds.
So to your question: it is a lifetime of living a contorted unnatural life that with unnatural view of the world that has definitely been the main contributor.
Current status quo: totally faded and my spouse [a former pioneer ] is with me [she worked out her own path without consulting / viewing any websites etc - just matched WTS teaching against the Bible.] My kids concluded this was not the way about 3 years back for themselves -
My sister [also a former pioneer ] is also out.
There is just no more angst! its a wonderful feeling.
PS since becoming inactive NOT ONE elder has contacted us in any form to "shepherd' or assist / we dont get invited to any social activity etc We were obviously just expendable Cult fodder pawns in their game. Fact that I was baptised for 40 years and wife for 46 years is of no consequence to them. Free at Last man !!