Posts by ohnightdivine

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2014 -2015 District Convention Theme - unofficial-

by WatchTower87 in

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unofficial theme:.

-the end (of watchtower) is near!

- lets kingdom come bis.

No more doubts for me! Good-bye JWN! We have THE TRUTH!

by DATA-DOG in

i could go on and on about my personal journey over the last 2 years or so, but i don't need to.

everything i needed to hear to finally lay my doubts to rest happened on one meeting night.

it could only be divine providence.

New here

by winnie12 in

hey i'm new here, i've been reading up so much here and on other sites about tatt and it has really settled a nagging feeling of doubt within me.

truly i have been lied to and have been trapped in this cult.

i've been suffering with depression, anxiety, attempted suicide, hospitalization, anti depressants, loneliness all this while being in supposedly surrounded by "the happiest people" on earth.

ohnightdivine

Welcome to JWN, winnie12.

I am taking a quick break from work so I was able t do a quick read on your situation.

Please know that we are here for you, though far away.

I also came here with the same feeling only a few months ago and have felt the support from the forum members.

Meanwhile, please consider their advices. Take care of yourself.

Love yourself more.

That's it for now as I need to go back to my workstation!

Hugs from the Pacific.

OND

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How do you guys feel during the holidays?

by Joliette in

this is a very lonely time of year for me i admit it.

i'm suppose to be going over my aunties house wednesday after work.

but going to christmas/holiday parties and get togethers, i still kinda feel out of place.. i really wish i grew up celebrating the holidays more.

ohnightdivine

I feel quite empty. I'm away from my family and can't make it home. Half of our congregation is away on vacation. What a coincidence, right..

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Found another JWN-like forum in my language!

by ohnightdivine in

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just a few minutes ago i found out another ex-jw/jw forum online in my native language.. i am soooo happy because i thought there was very little hope of ttatt reaching these people.

as you can see, very few speak english fluently in my country.. but, yay!

the forum is so alive and up-to-date, just like jwn, and i even saw copies of the menlo park congregation docs.. there is still hope after all.. i'd be glad to see even just one member of my congregation wake up to ttatt..

ohnightdivine

Just a few minutes ago I found out another ex-JW/JW forum online in my native language.

I am soooo happy because I thought there was very little hope of TTATT reaching these people. As you can see, very few speak English fluently in my country.

But, yay! The forum is so alive and up-to-date, just like JWN, and I even saw copies of the Menlo Park congregation docs.

There is still hope after all.. I'd be glad to see even just one member of my congregation wake up to TTATT.

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You put your right foot in...you put your left foot out...

by hokeypokey in

enjoying the commentary on this board and up at night doing some research.

coming to grips with my new reality.

- hokey pokey.

ohnightdivine

What you are experiencing is normal. Like what everyone else here said, it will be an emotional rollercoaster.

Allow yourself to feel nervous, confused, disappointed, etc... but PLEASE DO NOT TELL ANYONE ABOUT THIS for now. Except us.

I was in your shoes a few months ago and I allowed myself to grieve and to be angry and to be sad..

Don't make any big decisions for now. Please be kind to yourself. Take care of your health.

Please believe us when we say that things will definitely get better.

Again, please do not share anything with your family or with ANYONE in the congregation.

Once your mind clears up, you will come to a better decision.

Warm regards from the Pacific.

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Blondie

by blondie in

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woops.

ohnightdivine

Hello, Ms. Blondie.

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What do you miss about your pre-JW years?

by ohnightdivine in

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i'll start with my experiences during childhood up to high school years... i was raised in a typical catholic family (not very adherent, just keeping up with traditions but it was all that we knew).. just to let you know, i am alone in the "truth".. 1) short prayers with my mom before going to sleep.

it was short and i think that as a child, god was more real to me than when i became a jw.

i would say, "dear god.

ohnightdivine

I'll start with my experiences during childhood up to high school years..

I was raised in a typical Catholic family (not very adherent, just keeping up with traditions but it was all that we knew).

Just to let you know, I am alone in the "truth".

1) Short prayers with my Mom before going to sleep. It was short and I think that as a child, God was more real to me than when I became a JW. I would say, "Dear God. Bless Dad, bless Mom, bless my sister, bless my brother, bless my.... thank for all the blessings we received today. Amen." I don't think I have prayed with my Mom for a very long time. We do.. but of course, silent prayers by both of us.

2) Downtown strolls after going to church.. then coming home to curl up in the sofa while my Dad and Mom prepared delicious food. We had a dirty kitchen outside the house and I would enjoy the smell of burning firewood. Couldn't wait for lunch.

3) Feeling good about my accomplishments in school. Not to be boastful or something, but I was a consistent topnotcher in school.. I felt good about studying and doing well. It made my parents happy, which made me feel happier of course. My parents NEVER pushed me to be an honor student, just a hardworking person so that I would be successful in the future. They're the most hardworking people I've known, but they gave me LOTS of time for play after school!!! I had a blast during childhood. I'd roam around in the neighborhood (we lived in a sleepy town with virtually no crime) doing HOUSE-to-HOUSE (lol) playing with all the neighborhood children until the sun set. Ironically, one of the books I enjoyed reading was the Bible Stories book. Lol

4) Christmas and other feasts. You know, just enjoying the happiness of it all. It was different 20-30 years ago. People were more innocent and did not have all the distractions we have now.

Now fast-forward to late high school and college. And now. The feeling of having been a JW is comparable to losing "innocent happiness" to me. I've gained "friends" but know that at any time I go, I would be treated as if I never existed.

Anyhow, I am starting to rebuild my life and pursue my "worldly" interests such as working full-time to secure my future. My family is still the same and never treated me differently when I became a JW. I somehow regret the times when I became too uptight and self-righteous with them...

But life goes on.. Well, time for some Christmas shopping for my folks. ;)

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You put your right foot in...you put your left foot out...

by hokeypokey in

enjoying the commentary on this board and up at night doing some research.

coming to grips with my new reality.

- hokey pokey.

ohnightdivine

Welcome!

Things get better.

Hope to hear your story soon.

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DEC 2013 WT Article - Slave for Jehovah - warning: ranting ahead

by ohnightdivine in

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this morning's wt study almost made me vomit, stand up, pick up my bag and rush to the door.. of course it never happened.

instead, i was able to make some nice drawings on my tablet and notepad.. if you replace the name jehovah with watchtower, or the governing 8 men, it would really make sense.. what's up with all that nonstop guilt-mongering about education and having a decent job?!.

most people look down on the uneducated, and i remember, when i didn't have a job, nobody cared!.

ohnightdivine

These 8 men are really clever.

Starting from the July WT, the NuLite, them being the mighty Fakeful Indiscreet Slaves asserting power all over us, and even the God himself

Warning us not to be ENRAGED against G--, er, them

Spend our waking lives on pushing these magazines to empty doors

And now portray those getting proper education as evil...

Can't see the pattern, huh?

Repeat 77,777,777 times.