Posts by ohnightdivine

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I feel sorry for just about everyone else.. even the elder's wife

by ohnightdivine in

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i've been busy with with being busy after knowing ttatt.

after this sunday's meeting i was invited over by one congregation elder's wife to an afternoon coffee.

we're not very close because of the age gap but we've "known" each other for so many years now, being in the same congregation.. she is like the anchor of the group.

ohnightdivine

I didn't give her any advice. What happened was unexpected for me. I listened to her the entire time.

I just feel thankful that she saw me as trustworthy (sorry for sharing it here, though, but she still remains anonymous),

and a "good enough" company for that kind of conversation. I'm single and she's married, we have more than 10 years' age gap.

I really think it is extremely difficult for sisters, especially elder wives, to open up their hearts and share their sad stories for fear

of being judged. I remember her saying "I cannot tell this to anyone. What would they think--that living this kind of life (in the truth) is not happy?"

:( What really pains me more is about her being sad and full of what-if's.. what if she had a child? Too late, she thinks.

:(

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I feel sorry for just about everyone else.. even the elder's wife

by ohnightdivine in

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i've been busy with with being busy after knowing ttatt.

after this sunday's meeting i was invited over by one congregation elder's wife to an afternoon coffee.

we're not very close because of the age gap but we've "known" each other for so many years now, being in the same congregation.. she is like the anchor of the group.

ohnightdivine

Hello everyone. It's been a while.

I've been busy with with being busy after knowing TTATT. But, I'm still in.

After this Sunday's meeting I was invited over by one congregation elder's wife to an afternoon coffee.

We're not very close because of the age gap but we've "known" each other for so many years now, being in the same congregation.

She is like the anchor of the group. One of the "originators" of the congregation here.

And everyone in the circuit (or region) knows her. The hardworking, hospitable, always-participating-in-the-study, popular elder's wife.

She knew I've been quite keeping to myself these days. I figured she wanted to catch up with me.

To make a long story short.... over a cup of coffee and some conversation she cried her eyes out in front of me.

She said that almost everyone would think she didn't have any ups and downs. I said yes.

And her eyes just swelled and tears came running down. And she said, "Yes. I'm also human. I feel very lonely at times. But I cannot tell anyone."

Until now I cannot forget those tears. We talked for about an hour and it was the very first time in more than 10 years that she opened up about it.

She's in her 40's and just realized and felt the emptiness of not having her own child.

I was in pain looking at her. What a waste of a good heart and person.

I also shed a tear.. I really feel so sorry for her. Everyone in the congregation seems to be just sticking it out...

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Selective Statistics & extraordinary JW claims

by Syme in

* a jw family leave their crops and livestock unattained to go to a convention.

when they return, the crops and livestock are doing just fine.. * a desperate person is anxiously praying to god to give her a chance to know him.

even before the prayer is concluded, two jws knock at her door.. * a pioneer prefers to take leave from her work in order to attend the pioneer school, even though she's sure she'll be fired.

ohnightdivine

LOL. Thanks for the laugh, eyeuse2badub

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2014 -2015 District Convention Theme - unofficial-

by WatchTower87 in

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unofficial theme:.

-the end (of watchtower) is near!

- lets kingdom come bis.

No more doubts for me! Good-bye JWN! We have THE TRUTH!

by DATA-DOG in

i could go on and on about my personal journey over the last 2 years or so, but i don't need to.

everything i needed to hear to finally lay my doubts to rest happened on one meeting night.

it could only be divine providence.

New here

by winnie12 in

hey i'm new here, i've been reading up so much here and on other sites about tatt and it has really settled a nagging feeling of doubt within me.

truly i have been lied to and have been trapped in this cult.

i've been suffering with depression, anxiety, attempted suicide, hospitalization, anti depressants, loneliness all this while being in supposedly surrounded by "the happiest people" on earth.

ohnightdivine

Welcome to JWN, winnie12.

I am taking a quick break from work so I was able t do a quick read on your situation.

Please know that we are here for you, though far away.

I also came here with the same feeling only a few months ago and have felt the support from the forum members.

Meanwhile, please consider their advices. Take care of yourself.

Love yourself more.

That's it for now as I need to go back to my workstation!

Hugs from the Pacific.

OND

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How do you guys feel during the holidays?

by Joliette in

this is a very lonely time of year for me i admit it.

i'm suppose to be going over my aunties house wednesday after work.

but going to christmas/holiday parties and get togethers, i still kinda feel out of place.. i really wish i grew up celebrating the holidays more.

ohnightdivine

I feel quite empty. I'm away from my family and can't make it home. Half of our congregation is away on vacation. What a coincidence, right..

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Found another JWN-like forum in my language!

by ohnightdivine in

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just a few minutes ago i found out another ex-jw/jw forum online in my native language.. i am soooo happy because i thought there was very little hope of ttatt reaching these people.

as you can see, very few speak english fluently in my country.. but, yay!

the forum is so alive and up-to-date, just like jwn, and i even saw copies of the menlo park congregation docs.. there is still hope after all.. i'd be glad to see even just one member of my congregation wake up to ttatt..

ohnightdivine

Just a few minutes ago I found out another ex-JW/JW forum online in my native language.

I am soooo happy because I thought there was very little hope of TTATT reaching these people. As you can see, very few speak English fluently in my country.

But, yay! The forum is so alive and up-to-date, just like JWN, and I even saw copies of the Menlo Park congregation docs.

There is still hope after all.. I'd be glad to see even just one member of my congregation wake up to TTATT.

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You put your right foot in...you put your left foot out...

by hokeypokey in

enjoying the commentary on this board and up at night doing some research.

coming to grips with my new reality.

- hokey pokey.

ohnightdivine

What you are experiencing is normal. Like what everyone else here said, it will be an emotional rollercoaster.

Allow yourself to feel nervous, confused, disappointed, etc... but PLEASE DO NOT TELL ANYONE ABOUT THIS for now. Except us.

I was in your shoes a few months ago and I allowed myself to grieve and to be angry and to be sad..

Don't make any big decisions for now. Please be kind to yourself. Take care of your health.

Please believe us when we say that things will definitely get better.

Again, please do not share anything with your family or with ANYONE in the congregation.

Once your mind clears up, you will come to a better decision.

Warm regards from the Pacific.

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Blondie

by blondie in

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woops.

ohnightdivine

Hello, Ms. Blondie.