Bruja-del-Sol

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  True Stories from the Tower - Part 1 "From Anointed to Pedophile to Bethelite"

  by BluePill2 in

  1. watchtower
  2. scandals

  before i dive into the actual write-up of this experience, let me put some things straight.. i have thought long and hard if i should write more about my experiences during the 10+ years at different branches.

  during these years i worked from financial department, service department, home office and different it assignments.

  as you can imagine one sees and hears and reads a lot of stuff going through different stations in different countries.

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  Bruja-del-Sol

  Amazing story... can imagine you have to get that off your chest and I'm glad you do. Hope it helps to relieve your mind.
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  How jw parents do their best to make their some feel guilt

  by will-be-apostate in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i've got a 6 years old brother who recently expressed his concerns about my spirituality.

  he said that he had a dream about me being dead (i am at college, far away from my parents).

  he also told my parents that he was afraid i would no longer be a jw and in that case he wouldn't hug me again anymore; and that he was crying and felt very sad.. my dad called me today and told me all this and more.

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  Bruja-del-Sol

  So sad to hear this about you and your little brother. Similar happened to me once. My youngest sister was 16 and I was already DF'd for a couple of years. Somehow we got in touch and she told me she didn't want to be a JW. At that time I also had email contact with my parents for a short while. Apparantly they thought at that time me being DF'd wasn't a problem. One day my I stopped by the house of my parents (we were in the neighborhood while we lived 1,5 hour drive away) just to see and hug my little sister, and we did. She met my then fiance and it was all very nice. My parents did approve and knew that I had met my sister on their doorstep.

  Not long after that I asked my parents through email if I could pick up my sister for a drink somewhere. Just to have an hour or so together, just the two of us. I had no intention of talking about the WTS, just wanted to get to know my sister a little bit better and hear her stories about school and being a teenager. (I'm twenty years older and was already married and moved away from my parents house by the time she was born). My mother reacted like stung by a bee... she asked me if I had secrets, why I didn't want to meet my sister in their home, what was I planning???? In fact I wasn't planning anything, had nothing to hide, just didn't want my to get my parents in any trouble with the ever spying brs. & srs. for entering their house for a social visit. My father had said earlier on that he would allow me to stay in touch with my sister, but suddenly he had changed his mind and he told me that I had to wait until she was 18. I was so disappointed!!! And I told my father that he was a liar, because he first said something quite the contrary. All of this only because of the weird suspicions of my mother!

  My accusation of him being a liar pissed him off, as did my mother. The email contact stopped right then and there, not after he sent me a line that I'm egoistic and that he 'finished the book 'Bruja' and threw it away' (very hurtful I can tell you, since he actually said he was throwing ME away, his own daughter).

  The only time I ever saw them again was with the funeral of my grandmother two years later, where they pretended that everything was fine (see earlier posting about that). After I wrote about that on my blog they started to hate me. Since then my sister has turned into our parents 'best daughter' and a JW-extremist and a clone of my mother with the same narcissistic destructive behaviour. She is now joining my parents in shunning my JW-brother and his family, because his fifteen year old daughter recently gave birth to a baby... oops... tiny mistake from my little niece!!!! (So glad I can 'see' all this from an enormous distance and don't have any part in this whole disturbed family anymore!)
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  RESPONSE: Letting Go of the Need to Have Approval - MUST READ!

  by gmason972 in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  thanks for the responses everybody!...nice to know i'm not alone in this.

  the one thing that the watchtower society has taught me is to never place your value and worth in the hands of other people!....

  once you look deep down inside yourself and let go of the need to have approval from others...you will find out things about you; you didn't know before.

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  Bruja-del-Sol

  This is 100% my cup of tea. I can only say a big loud AMEN!
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  If I was out I'd...

  by OneDayillBeFree in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  what kinds of things would you like to do if you were out of the organization?

  and if you're already out and free, what kinds of things did you do that you really wanted to do but couldn't because it was against jw beleiefs?.

  recently, i overheard some of the younger crowd of jw's after a meeting talking about how they wished they could have this or do that, get tattoos, play the newest video games (you know, the ones with all the violence and realistic 'kickass' graphics and such), grow out their beards for 'no shave november" wear miniskirts and dye their hair crazy colours... etc.

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  Bruja-del-Sol

  The moment I got DF'd I started doing the things I wanted to do. Going out, making new friends, watch Harry Potter (which terrified me the first time haha), learn about tarot, witchcraft and paganism which I've been interested in ever since I was a very young girl (of course reading or learning anything about it was out of the question), so I now live my life the way I want to... Oh and I've tried smoking, but only when I got drunk at birthday parties hahahaha. Didn't last very long. Being drunk makes me feel horribly sick and smoking was just to make a statement: "I'm doing what I want!" So I've skipped drinking too much and quit smoking before I even really got started.

  So I'm living a fairly normal life now (and for those who think that witches are flying broomsticks and copulate with the devil... sorry to let your vivid imagination down, but ehm... we don't ).
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  So, I got this D2D visit and I made them start disagreeing between them in front of my eyes

  by BluePill2 in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  ususally i wouldn't come here to announce that two dudes in polyester suits with cheap ties wanted to convert me.

  i am long past that "excitement", been out for a couple of years now.

  this was the first time they rang my door bell.

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  Bruja-del-Sol

  Thank you BluePill2, this is really funny, made me laugh out loud!
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  Why Is A Tiny Ant More Complex Than A Religious Persons God?

  by JamesThomas in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  we never hear of people speaking in the name of ants.

  never do people say this or that is what an ant wants, or this is what will make an ant like you, or hate you, etc.

  we just don't know how ants think.

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  Bruja-del-Sol

  Adamah said: "Why don't we hear about humans who claim to hear the voices of dolphins speaking to them in their heads?"

  Sorry to disappoint you, but I do know people who claim to hear voices of dolphins and whales (no, not ANT whales ) speaking to them, and guiding them, inside their heads! No kidding!
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  Fact: Your Life is trickling away or 936 Blobs...How many remain in your case?

  by BluePill2 in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  i have seriously been thinking about my life course (like any other human being) but especially in the light of past events and where i am standing now.

  my posts here show that i have (like most of us) still a good way to go until i have shredded every part of my cultish past.

  at one side it will always be part of who you are and why you are now thinking, behaving in a certain way on the other hand we have to let go.

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  Bruja-del-Sol

  Love it, made one myself. Pretty confronting to see all those blobs spent in the Borg... but hey, there's more blobs than that to spend ouside the Borg
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  Circuit Accounts Servants Confesses how the SCAM WORKS!!

  by JT in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  yes, i too have wondered how an assembly that is held in a fully paid for assembly hall, with no food service, could possibly have $10,000 in expenses.

  i suppose the bethel speakers have transportation expenses - maybe $1000 or so.

  as for rent on the assembly hall, well you have already paid for it once, why pay again?

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  Bruja-del-Sol

  Jaw dropping thread... Glad that we usually didn't pay at the Assemblies, although we did pay a monthly contribution of 75 Dutch guilders to the congregation (for years!)... money that we could hardly miss. What a waste

  I remember colleagues telling me that the whole JW'religion was money based, 'big fat CEO's behind huge desks are laughing their asses off in America about you suckers' they said... and they made me furious, it was NOT about money, nobody benefitted financially within the JW religion, it was all volunteers, donations for the printing of bibles and publications and this was the only religion showing genuine Christian love... yeah right! Those colleagues, over 25 years ago, were sooooo right!
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  How many Kingdom Halls have you went to in your lifetime?

  by Iamallcool in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  for me, i think i went to 20 kingdom halls in my lifetime.

  just a guess.

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  Bruja-del-Sol

  Been in 6 congregations and visited over 20 halls, inclusing the ones while visiting my grandparents, sleepovers at JW-friends while I was a teenager, and several newly build ones (my ex-husband was part of the 'quick build team' in the Netherlands) and a couple I've been to on vacation or for wedding talks.

  I like the question, never really thought about this.
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  I Went To A Catholic Mass Yesterday And What A Waste of Time!

  by minimus in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  the priest acted as if he was the reason why people were there.

  he was about 80 and totally disinterested in the affair although he married the deceased and her husband 15 years earlier.. his sermon's gist was that we need faith to accept that the reason why god has us die is so that we can go to heaven.

  and that's it.. the only interesting (touching) time was when the grandkids gave testimonials about their beloved grandma.. oh, and one more thing.

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  Bruja-del-Sol

  I love rituals (and humans have rituals all day long! Brushing your teeth in the morning, anything you do in a specific way or at a specific time can count for a ritual). Many of the rituals in a Catholic Mass are like the rituals being used in paganism, so I recognize a lot in it and kinda like it. Although my first Catholic Mass felt strange, indeed because of the kneeling, standing, sitting... I just stayed put on the bench