Many JWs who listen at assemblies tend to make drastic changes in their lives to pioneer or do more. If you talk about making changes they may think you've listened.
I hope you get the reconection with family that you're hoping for, playing these games is sickening, I don't like to watch others do it. I tried to play myself, but I am too much of a loud mouth to play their game. I would rather play my own game my way.
Kate xx